Putting one foot in front of the other...
Putting one foot in front of the other...
Led my first alanon meeting tonight!
What I realized as I sat listening to others share about the topic I picked, was that I am making progress!!! Now, people have told me I was, and I kind of knew it, but tonight I really could see it.
Not sure how, but the extreme anger I felt for a long time is not there. It feels good to not be mad or resentful so much.
I am getting better at letting go -- which feels great -- you know, not trying to do everything and fix everything -- that controlling I am so adept at.
AND, most importantly, I am beginning to really forgive myself and accept me for who I am.
All this is not to say I don't still have things to work on, but sharing something positive for a change feels good. I also heard so much of "me" when other people shared....further proof we are not alone in this thing.
None of it would have happened without SR (it started here) -- Thank you all so much!
What I realized as I sat listening to others share about the topic I picked, was that I am making progress!!! Now, people have told me I was, and I kind of knew it, but tonight I really could see it.
Not sure how, but the extreme anger I felt for a long time is not there. It feels good to not be mad or resentful so much.
I am getting better at letting go -- which feels great -- you know, not trying to do everything and fix everything -- that controlling I am so adept at.
AND, most importantly, I am beginning to really forgive myself and accept me for who I am.
All this is not to say I don't still have things to work on, but sharing something positive for a change feels good. I also heard so much of "me" when other people shared....further proof we are not alone in this thing.
None of it would have happened without SR (it started here) -- Thank you all so much!
Way to go!!
I don't see my progress much, until I see someone who is still where I was. I think we ALL still have things to work on, but isn't it nice to see how far we've come?
Hugs and prayers!
Amy
I don't see my progress much, until I see someone who is still where I was. I think we ALL still have things to work on, but isn't it nice to see how far we've come?
Hugs and prayers!
Amy
I think that's what it was.....hearing others helped me see where I was - I remember that place but feel the change at the same time....I know I still have a ways to go.
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(((itisatruth)))
I had a similar experience tonight - listening to someone else share the "unique" story, looking for a little guidance (she's thinking of going to Alanon), etc. I listened, and listened, I understood exactly where she was coming from - her story echoing most of ours and I realized, even tho I have these blips where I'm so worried I might be slipping backwards, I'm actually further along than I thought.
Yeah for you for seeing your own progress, it is something to be proud of!
Here's to more progress (not perfection!)
:ghug3
I had a similar experience tonight - listening to someone else share the "unique" story, looking for a little guidance (she's thinking of going to Alanon), etc. I listened, and listened, I understood exactly where she was coming from - her story echoing most of ours and I realized, even tho I have these blips where I'm so worried I might be slipping backwards, I'm actually further along than I thought.
Yeah for you for seeing your own progress, it is something to be proud of!
Here's to more progress (not perfection!)
:ghug3
(((itisatruth)))
I had a similar experience tonight - listening to someone else share the "unique" story, looking for a little guidance (she's thinking of going to Alanon), etc. I listened, and listened, I understood exactly where she was coming from - her story echoing most of ours and I realized, even tho I have these blips where I'm so worried I might be slipping backwards, I'm actually further along than I thought.
Yeah for you for seeing your own progress, it is something to be proud of!
Here's to more progress (not perfection!)
:ghug3
I had a similar experience tonight - listening to someone else share the "unique" story, looking for a little guidance (she's thinking of going to Alanon), etc. I listened, and listened, I understood exactly where she was coming from - her story echoing most of ours and I realized, even tho I have these blips where I'm so worried I might be slipping backwards, I'm actually further along than I thought.
Yeah for you for seeing your own progress, it is something to be proud of!
Here's to more progress (not perfection!)
:ghug3
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