Bamboozle

I just had a "well, duh!" moment...a sort of epiphany for me...

I was skimming through an interesting thread that forced me to rub a few brain cells together... http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-recovery.html ...somehow I generated a thought!

I guess I "knew" beforehand, but I finally realized tonight that my making a habit of things was a problem long before I ever drank. It doesn't matter what I do...I always do something I like repetitively...I cannot control this...I just need to figure out a way to make this characteristic (fluke, whatever) work for me. I need to stop trying to change myself and go with the grain. I will find a way to be at peace. Anyone else notice that they seem to be this way? I guess some people call it having an "addictive personality".

SelfSeeking

I find a website I like and am on it like white on rice.

I reread my favorite books to a ridiculous degree... no really, it's a little weird.

I drank 5 cups of coffee this morning and then wondered at how jittery I seemed this afternoon.

But until your post, Dee, I too had not made that connection. Addictive personality... hmmmmmmmmmm. lol

Anna

Oh yes!

Looking back, I recognized all sorts of things that I would do repetitively. If I was calling someone and got a busy signal, I'd just keep right on trying. My husband would walk away and try calling again, half an hour later. I'd wonder how he could do that.

On the upside, that helped me with recovery. I started taking long walks every evening and it quickly became a good habit.