barb dwyer

**********************************{Thank You Everyone }}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

For the b’day wishes!!
I printed the thread out and am pasting it in my scrapbook.

I’m sorry it took so long to get on to see them – my neighbor has had some computer probs and she’s been quite sick. In fact, I spent all night last night at the Emergency Room with her. I wanted SO BAD to just find a terminal and spend the evening (from 12:30am until 5:00 am) with YOU all …

*sigh*

Instead, I had to make do with Terry Pratchett.

I logged onto this site soon after starting my new job while still detoxing in 2006.

I was one sick woman.
But the nature of the job, and your posts and struggling kept me coming back to Soberrecovery.
You had as much to do with my staying sober as anyone … anywhere.

And I never hesitate to tell those in real life ...
where I go for my recovery companionship.

My sponsor told me well over a year ago that SR had become my home group. Others have talked down on my time here, saying that many people post while still drinking, many are not sincere in their sobriety, bla bla bla. Saying that cyber time isn't 'real' recovery, and all that crap.

I always answer the same way – who cares?
I’m in this for MY recovery.

And YOU … should be as well.

I am living a new life.
Everywhere I go .. is a 'real' meeting.
Everyone I speak to ...
is a 'real' chance for fellowship.
No matter what 'they' say.

Who am I to qualify the Infinite's idea of 'real'?

I made a promise to be where the Infinite wanted me to be
in order to serve the Highest Good.
*shrug*
seems to me ... it's ALL 'real'.


SO WHAT if the person you’re answering isn’t sober?
That’s the whole deal, as far as I’m concerned.
SOMEONE … and we never know WHO or WHEN …
is trying.
*IS* struggling.
*IS* suffering.
And they … will come along and read the thread just like everyone else.

It’s none of our business who it is. Was. Will be.

The Infinite placed each and every one of us here in SR and in the rooms of AA, NA, whatever *A* … (insert the methodology of your own recovery here)
As surely as I’m sitting here typing.
I don’t believe that …
I know it.

There *IS* a power greater than us.
Than each of us …
Greater than all of us put together.
And it’s alive.
It’s REAL.
It’s accessible.
And Eternal.

It gifted all of you to me at the darkest time of my life …
And for that, I am truly grateful.

Thank you all so much.
I love you all.

:ghug

Bamboozle

I don't know what I'd do without SR...I find inner strength, but when I need people who understand, I come here. Practically everyone at SR is super positive and that's exactly what a negative person such as myself needs right now. Cyber time isn't real recovery? People have actually said that to you? I'm sorry...at least you have a positive perspective about it. They should be happy that you are doing what works for you...but those kinds of people, in my experience, never change. I try to avoid them whenever possible. They never fail to grate my gears. I'm working on tuning them out.

adore79

Thanks for being here Barb.

barb dwyer

I understand.
I know that many people who post here
and are also quite active in their own groups locally in 3-D
get some heat from time to time
for spending a goodly amount of time on a recovery site when
(in those people's minds) they could be in service .. in person.

They just don't understand, is all.
We each have our calling ... where we are needed to be.


'Relieve me of the bondage of self"
'So that I may better do thy work in this world.'

I kinda made a promise, ya know?
"Put me where you need me & help me know what to do"

Not everyone did.
Make that promise, I mean.
An yeah, I pretty much just smile and change the subject.

Thank you, felly -

anyone stumbling over a spare computer is welcome to donate!

Impurrfect

(((Barb)))

So glad to hear from you...I really miss you! I wish I had a spare computer, but I was in "withdrawals" myself for 3 weeks, when mine was in the shop! I was able to use dad's laptop, but had to de-virus it first and it's much slower than mine!

I agree with you on SR...it's a HUGE part of my recovery! Even my lawyer, who is a 20+ year AA member from my old home group where I used to live, tells me I'm doing what I need to do, it's working for me, so go for it!!!

My main prayer, these days is "let me be where you want me to be, do what you want me to do, and help whoever I can help".

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

nogard

((((((((((((Barb)))))))))))))

I spend a fair amount of time here and am not interested in what others say about that. As you say its my recovery.

Well done (((((barb)))))

Master G

That was a beautiful post Barb, I really connected with what you wrote. Thank you so much

mxchaos

miss you