Day 4
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Day 4
I`m starting day 4 and starting to feel better after a hellish day 1 and 2. I dont know if anyone remembers but I had posted a while back about my last hellish detox and I got about a week and relapsed. So here I go again. I`m finally getting an appetite back, taking vitamins and drinking water. I am taking ativan to help with the withdrawals since I always detox at home alone. I just never want to feel that sick again so I`m hoping I can last this time.
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Hey dreamer...If you get the urge to use again, maybe you could try coming to SR to read and post? That usually helps me. If that's not possible, call someone up. You can get through this. You'll find lots of support around here.
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Day 5 - having very strong urges to drink. I can imagine getting in my car, driving a few blocks to the store and buying a bottle of wine - cracking it open - pouring a big glass (I use big water glasses , broke all my nice wine glasses) bringing it upstairs - putting it on the table next to the computer and sitting and drinking like I always did.
Or I have alot of cleaning to do - I always drank while I was cleaning or cooking or writing bills or talking on the phone or just about everything.
I don`t want to do this.....yet I do. Please someone tell me something to stop me. Ugh..
Or I have alot of cleaning to do - I always drank while I was cleaning or cooking or writing bills or talking on the phone or just about everything.
I don`t want to do this.....yet I do. Please someone tell me something to stop me. Ugh..
Day 5 - having very strong urges to drink. I can imagine getting in my car, driving a few blocks to the store and buying a bottle of wine - cracking it open - pouring a big glass (I use big water glasses , broke all my nice wine glasses) bringing it upstairs - putting it on the table next to the computer and sitting and drinking like I always did.
Or I have alot of cleaning to do - I always drank while I was cleaning or cooking or writing bills or talking on the phone or just about everything.
I don`t want to do this.....yet I do. Please someone tell me something to stop me. Ugh..
Or I have alot of cleaning to do - I always drank while I was cleaning or cooking or writing bills or talking on the phone or just about everything.
I don`t want to do this.....yet I do. Please someone tell me something to stop me. Ugh..
I hope that helps Day. lol I like your sense of humor. I think you'll be just fine. You didn't get to day 5 without some real inner strength. What you're doing is an interesting thought. To go through the steps in your mind so you can clearly see if you've still got the desire. I kind of did the same thing. On my second day I went to the grocery store (where I always bought my beer) and stared at all the beer (even the brands I never bought) and noticed the price tag. I did the math and figured I could buy a new car with the amount of money I'll save now. Each time I go to the store I walk right on by with such strength and conviction. Life is good. keep up the good work Day, I'm proud of you!
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Thanks Hope and everyone!(my thanks button doesnt work)
I made it thru the day and night withou drinking and I am glad! I even did some cleaning and found a 25 dollar check in a huge pile of unopened mail! Begining day 6 today.
I made it thru the day and night withou drinking and I am glad! I even did some cleaning and found a 25 dollar check in a huge pile of unopened mail! Begining day 6 today.
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Day 7 - I am sooo glad I didnt drink on Sunday as Ihada job interview at a school Mon - and I think I got the job. I also have another interview friday for a job working with brain damaged adults. SO with all this going on there can be no drinking!..
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Keep at it DayDreamer. Wine is my poison too. I over the past few years have been getting progressively worse hangovers and splitting headaches. I can't take it anymore and am afraid. Today is day 9 for me and I feel great. How much wine did you drink and what specific plans have you made to make sure you don't cave again?
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I relapsed - so I`m back to day 1 - feeling horrible - Ithink I`m withdrawaling from ativan too - the dr won`t give me any me more until sept 8 or something. I`ve barely slept.
Hilltopper - I drank/drink ALOT of wine - usually bought the biggest bottle they have - I think its 3 liters and would drink over 3/4ths of it in a day/night. EVERY day.
For a long time. See my post on page one - ultimate embarrassment - flagged at the liquor store.
Plans - I don`t have any - I guess that`s why I keep failing. The longest I`ve ever gotten is 16 days and that was quite a while ago. I feel like the world`s biggest loser and I am so full of shame and self hatred I could die. I have to go watch some training film in a bit for a job I am trying to get and I am so shakey I am praying I get thru it without passing out, throwing up or falling over. Please someone help me I am losing it.
Hilltopper - I drank/drink ALOT of wine - usually bought the biggest bottle they have - I think its 3 liters and would drink over 3/4ths of it in a day/night. EVERY day.
For a long time. See my post on page one - ultimate embarrassment - flagged at the liquor store.
Plans - I don`t have any - I guess that`s why I keep failing. The longest I`ve ever gotten is 16 days and that was quite a while ago. I feel like the world`s biggest loser and I am so full of shame and self hatred I could die. I have to go watch some training film in a bit for a job I am trying to get and I am so shakey I am praying I get thru it without passing out, throwing up or falling over. Please someone help me I am losing it.
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