Mr H

Thinking of carrying on drinking today, had my last drink at 11pm last night, and afraid, at work feeling like a looser.
Many different ways to carry on drinking are going through my mind and im trying to block them all.
Pls help

Dee74

Read some of yr old threads Mr H.

In the end, you gotta draw a line in the sand, you know?

You know what happens. Stop the madness now, mate

D

Mr H

i know you're right, and i cant beleive im here again, i think i might look into AA this time, im not as strong as alchohol

Jig

Hi Mr H,

Here are some of the things I do when it all gets too much for me.

Keep busy.
Call someone.
Get to a meeting.
Post on SR.
Do something useful for someone.
Ask HP for help.
Write down all the reasons not to drink.

What ever you need to do to get out of your own head for a while.

Good Luck,

Jig

LadyInRed

Mr. H, you aren't a loser. I'm new to the boards and am going through withdrawals right now. In my eyes, you are a winner for fighting the temptation. Hang in there; you obviously are not happy drinking anymore.

Mr H

thanks for the list jig.
I will stay on these boards today, i really need my hand held this time.

Mattcake

Hi Mr H., something struck me about your post. On the one hand you talk about "thinking" a lot: ways to drink, ideas running through your head. On the other hand, you flat out state that you feel scared.

My general view is that thinking is too overrated and feelings are usually brushed off. They're just feelings , right, so why bother? But overthinking can kill you (that annoying voice telling you that you are a loser), and feeling won't. How can you reconcile both? Well, like D said, draw a line. A scare can do you in, but feeling scared can be healthy and motivate you to change. Insanity comes from thinking. Maybe you could brush off those thoughts and concentrate on how you feel, wondering about what feels right.

Congrats on starting over

LadyInRed

Mr H

I agree, but fear is really where my drinking comes from, the fear of hangovers, shakes, paranoia. i really feel like im skiing up hill today and i cant see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I know that its just a waiting game now, but its a battle...a real battle

winwin

Go for it!!! Just stop. You have to make the decision. See a medical professional if you feel like you need to. The first couple of days are always the worst. But you have friends here. Keep posting.

Mattcake

Mr H, take your skis off and stop running away from fear. I agree with Winwin, if you fear the physical consequences of stopping, see a doc. But don't allow fear to run and ruin your life. Maybe you could allow yourself a breather and, when you do feel ready, start walking up that hill. Good luck

Mr H

i do get a bit panicy at times which is the worst thing for me, anyone else?

Dee74

I remember being terrified of feeling like crap - it kept me in the drinking game for 15 yrs.
If its that bad a doctor is a great idea, Mr H.

For me I eventually ended up drinking enough over my time to make the thought of withdrawal look as effortless as Torville and Dean you know?

It sucked, but I managed
You can too.

D

Mr H

cheers dee, i will not let fear drag me down.

Mr H

this day is dragging..

jdcsawd

Hang in there H, I'm new here at SR and just wanted you to know from what I've read here on this and other threads it does get better. Also, GO to a meeting. I've been to 3 in 3 days, today will be the 4th. I'm working it this time, no turning back.

Mr H

cheers, its just coming up to lunch time and my body is screaming for a beer.
keeping myself behind this desk and my bum on this seat...

Anna

My fear of stopping drinking and living life, kept me continuing on the path, for years.

You can do this, Mr. H.

Mr H

well its lunch time and im still sober. i wont drink this next hour

jdcsawd

Nice job H!