sobergirl77

I am 9 days sober and know that no matter what, I cannot drink. And I won't.

But my entire being is screaming out for liquid relief. This has been happening every single day, it's like my dark, alcoholic side is actively campaigning for me to relapse. It's getting stronger and stronger.

I know I will not drink because I have surrendered my willpower to God, and He will keep me sober. But the desire and cravings are getting worse and worse and driving me crazy.

Help!

SlvrMag

I felt this way this morning. Do what I was told to do...drop to your knees and PRAY to your HP to relieve you of your cravings!! Then, go do something!!! It totally worked for me!

Taking5

Hang tough, it will pass. Get a book to read, watch a movie, do something.

Dee74

Sorry you're going through this SG....if you're in AA, ring those numbers...if not....keep posting...cravings suck...but they pass...you know that already

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Astro

It's not your body screaming for alcohol, it's your brain, the mental obsession.

This too shall pass, eventually the obsession is lifted if you continue your program of recovery.

Jules62

It sucks but it WILL pass. You can ride this out-you've done it before.

I know for me I have to get busy when the obsession starts. Do something.Bake, go for a walk, clean your house-anything, all the while praying for release.It will come.Keep posting too.We're here for you,

Julesxox

sobergirl77

After posting my original message, I got on the phone and called a couple of people in the program. It helped a LOT. Cravings are pretty much non-existent at the moment. I'm also going to my usual meeting at 9pm.

I am just so grateful to know that these are only cravings and the mental obsession rearing its ugly head. It's not that I have failed or that I am not spiritual enough. It's just darn alcoholism. I used to beat myself up thinking that when I got a craving or the obsession, that I had failed in my spiritual program. But now I know it's only a defeat or failure if I give in again.

Dee74

I've never believed this
it is darn alcoholism.

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Anna

That's right Sobergirl!

I think, that as your mind realizes that you are going to win this battle, it speaks louder and more often. But, your cravings will lessen as you get through each one, and become stronger.

Time2Surrender

Thats awesome. Pick up the phone before picking up.

stone

That's some pretty harsh judgement to lay on yourself!

Since you are in AA I will throw a slogan at ya.

Progress not perfection.

We are not saints.

Cravings/obsessions ALWAYS pass, get busy, eat...anything. At 3 days sober I am very much talking to myself here too.

CarolD

...Prayers for your peace of mind SG
Yes! you are winning over alcoholism!

sobergirl77

That is SO true! I know this now - that it's progress, not perfection, but I didn't for a while. I was pretty good at beating myself up over everything I did wrong!

winwin

You've made it so long. I envy you. I know that you have more willpower than me since I am back to Day 1 after only making it 4 days. But WE will keep trying.

WishIWasNormal

I just figured that out a few days ago. I always considered it physical withdrawal. If I am able to stay sober, it will be because of SR and all I am learning on the different sites. In 28 years, the longest I have been C & S is 2 1/2 weeks. When I don't drink it's because I have Rx. Both have caused permanent, lifechanging,irreversable misery.

tommyk

Good work in using the tools you've learned about (the phone, meetings).

Realize that your 'disease', your obsession, craves the alcohol, not 'you'.

Difficult distinction to make, but you can learn to recognize when the 'disease' is talking.

Suzisharpshoote

Sobergirl,

I'm only on day 18, so I'm not sure I'm much better off or able to give advice, but I like what you did. It gives me hope.

I think it is our actions, when we get a craving? that dictate wether we will drink or not. If we do the things needed to NOT drink, ei: call a sponsor, take a walk, kick the cat, (no just kidding

Last night I was myself climbing the walls for vodka, I posted about it here on the threads, then I forced, FORCED myself to go take a hot bath, paint my toenails. & then I came back to the boards, feeling cleaner & not so stressed. still stressed but able to "deal".

Tonight, right after work (my high stress point of the day) I came home and immediately fled to the bath. I took 20 minutes, right away to de-stress, to ease into the normal time of day that I would have been drinking. I think I realized it was the witching hour?

I think realizing your "triggers" will help you take "ACTION" to NOT drink. I've learned that here thanks guys! Is this the way to go? I think so, for me anyway.


Um as for being a spiritual failure..oh boy can I relate. and 3 weeks ago, with my hand on the church doornob, waivering wether to go inside. I spoke outloud, to myself.
"I am a child of god & I belong in this place" then I went in and sat down & heard the message.

Good job taking action, I'm so glad we are both here

:praying :ghug3

eggie

They do, in another post, i stated that I cried all last night about not being able to drink...

Today I'm so much better.

11 weeks!

Rowan

Sober girl,

You did a really good thing tonight by coming here and sharing, and then by picking up the phone and sharing some more. That's exactly how this works. Keep up the great work.

Dee74

good going to sober girl, to eggie and to Suzi

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