more mortal since i quit?
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more mortal since i quit?
since you've quit drinking and/or using do you feal more mortal?
i ask because before, especially when i was drunk, i thought i could defy death. i'd do some dangerous shenanigans when i was drunk!
the thing is now i've realized that someday i will die for sure and that's ok. it's kinda inevitable i guess. but it scares me. am i paranoid about this or am i just living life on lifes terms? sometimes i even have fantasys of how i'll check out (heart attack; in my sleep; terrible virus; stuff like that).
so really my question is is this normal?
i ask because before, especially when i was drunk, i thought i could defy death. i'd do some dangerous shenanigans when i was drunk!
the thing is now i've realized that someday i will die for sure and that's ok. it's kinda inevitable i guess. but it scares me. am i paranoid about this or am i just living life on lifes terms? sometimes i even have fantasys of how i'll check out (heart attack; in my sleep; terrible virus; stuff like that).
so really my question is is this normal?
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Hi Aldo,
I 'tempted' death alot when I was drunk. We feel little fear under the influence. I used to say when I got drunk I became 'ten foot tall and bulletproof'.
And yes, I have curious thoughts about death now in sobriety. Probably as a result of I have no idea how/why I am still alive after all of the drunken escapades that should have killed me?
Congrats on your sobriety.
I 'tempted' death alot when I was drunk. We feel little fear under the influence. I used to say when I got drunk I became 'ten foot tall and bulletproof'.
And yes, I have curious thoughts about death now in sobriety. Probably as a result of I have no idea how/why I am still alive after all of the drunken escapades that should have killed me?
Congrats on your sobriety.
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hi Tommy,
that's a relief. i thought i was going crazy! i'm so happy i'm not the only one who's worrying about this then.
that must be it: why are we still alive when we should/could have died so many times.
my mom says that god has a plan for all of us and someday everything will just all fall into place and i'll then understand my purpous in life.
that's a relief. i thought i was going crazy! i'm so happy i'm not the only one who's worrying about this then.
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Probably as a result of I have no idea how/why I am still alive after all of the drunken escapades that should have killed me?
my mom says that god has a plan for all of us and someday everything will just all fall into place and i'll then understand my purpous in life.
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We each have an important purpose in life now, as a result of being clean/sober.
We lead a meaningful life now, as an example that a clean/sober lifestyle can be achieved.
I find myself spending more & more time toward carrying the message in some fashion, by example, by sharing, through my music.
Giving back is a noble purpose for each of our lives - you are very important now.
We lead a meaningful life now, as an example that a clean/sober lifestyle can be achieved.
I find myself spending more & more time toward carrying the message in some fashion, by example, by sharing, through my music.
Giving back is a noble purpose for each of our lives - you are very important now.
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It has been a powerful message to me, that I am still here.
I was lost, so lost and searching for meaning and the fact that I am here, when I could have died, tells me everything I need to know.
I was lost, so lost and searching for meaning and the fact that I am here, when I could have died, tells me everything I need to know.
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Hey aldo! Just my 2 cents but sometimes we must make a purpose for our lives.
For me I found volunteering to be very rewarding...I started working a soup kitchen and found a new passion if you will. Eventually my volunteering led me to a career change, I now work with the elderly and find it incredible rewarding.
My life had meaning before I quit drinking, now I can enjoy it more.
For me I found volunteering to be very rewarding...I started working a soup kitchen and found a new passion if you will. Eventually my volunteering led me to a career change, I now work with the elderly and find it incredible rewarding.
My life had meaning before I quit drinking, now I can enjoy it more.
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