Dee74

so...recently I've been having leg problems - no pain, just...they're not responding very well, or worse than usual anyhow LOL.

I'm not a great one for the doctor - I've been vaguely promising I'll go for a general checkup since I was 6 months sober....but ultimately - this needed to be sorted.

Preliminary diagnosis says it may be my spine - I have bad posture, as you do with cerebral palsy. It may be a disc is getting worn or a nerve damaged or something...I don't know the severity of anything...it may be something really inconsequential, or it may be something that will get progressively worse...

Scary times.

But I sat here with my partner discussing it, and I realised - through all this, all the worry, all the stress - I've not thought of drinking. Not once.

Only a few weeks ago, I'm sure most will remember, I was struggling with intermittent cravings - sometimes life's not particularly great...sometimes it really sucks....

I had every reason, every excuse to blow today off and 'relax', 'unwind', 'self-medicate', 'run away'...

Nah.

It's such a gift to be able to face something like this and know that I - me...the guy who used to drink all day every day - can face it....sober.

I just wanted to share something positive today.

I'm not bignoting myself. I certainly don't want sympathy LOL.
I'm no different to anyone else here - we can all face anything sober - if we want to.

D

CarolD

Yes...no matter what weirdo things come to be...
I absolutely know drinking is going to magnify the situation.

Thanks for sharing your victory today

cmc

Hiya Dee,

Evidently so! I'm so glad and proud of your recovery efforts. It really is an amazing transformation that happens isn't it?

I'm hoping the docs can find out exactly what's going on with you and that you can find ways to deal with and treat it.

laurie6781

You got that right Dee. We sure can.

May they find the cause soon!!!!!

Love and hugs,

Klynn33

Hi Dee........
that must have been quite the feeling.......to go through what you did today and then remember that you forgot to think about "relaxing/self medicating". and I know you just wanted to share something positive (mission accomplished) and you're not looking for sympathy (which I'm not offering) and you're not looking for a pat on the back for what you've gotten through today..........well I can't let that one go

here's a big pat on the back from me!!!!!!!!!!!

thank you so much for posting that - I love reading your comments, I don't think I've seen any that weren't in some way motivational for me.

Thank you again for sharing - and thank you for just being here.

I hope everything works out for you!!

parentrecovers

let your doctor advise you and your partner support you, dee. you deserve all the help and love there is. talk through it. make the best decisions you can for your health and well being. continue to be grateful for every little thing. and keep comin' back!

hugs, and that's my 2 cents worth. please send me $10 and a pirate.

love, k

:ghug3

Anna

Super post Dee!

I love your attitude and I wish you well with your dr visit.

grateful2b

Inspiring!
Dee74,..I pray that your Doctor visit goes well ...

Rella927

Dee as always inspiring to even this little codie!

Astounding (not giving you kudos) man you are and I'm so glad that you
are going through this sober!

I will send positive thoughts all the way to Aussie land that the Dr. finds
a solution! (Not giving sympathy)

Happy that you have someone with you to share and be there for you to give
you guidance and support!



Oh and the $10.00 goes to me now not K

Love ya Dee Dee!

parentrecovers

i agree with everything rella says. except for the part about the $10.

Ananda

I am a ditto head :ghug3

OOOOOPS droped you

LosingmyMisery

Some of my most trying life situations were while I was sober. I can totally relate. Not once did I think of drinking to deal with them. It is great feeling.

gypsytears

I hope I'm like Dee when I grow up .

* maybe I can do something for ya. No sympathy... but $10 might cover it .

Jomey

no pity, no sympathy....no problem.

no "well done" on posting a motivational, moving moment (you know me and alliteration LOL) in your life that will doubtlessly help everyone here stay sober...

WHEN DONKEYS FLY!!!!!!!

Like it or lump it, kiddo, it was great post and I'm proud of you.

So there.

love you, Jomey

warrens

Wow

All the best to you, Dee. No pity, just gratitude.

I hope all read this gift you've given.

Thanks,

warren

Krissy41

Right on my friend you are an inspiration and thank you for sharing.

I am with Gyps, "when I grow up I want to be just like Dee" .

As always you are wonderful. :ghug3

Alive

thank you

Aysha

Your always there to give me a kick in the pants. And I do appreciate that.
Hope all goes well. You have been an ispiration to me over the past year.

stone

"when I grow up I want to be just like Dee"

Me too!


I hope the leg thing is something that can be sorted mate.

BUTTERFLY-7

"You Go Boy"
"You are sure have Inspire me, and Gave me a Reality Check"