Barbara52

I am in a mood that I can't quite pin down. I think somber fits along with relieved. Along with sadness at the final loss of those unrealistic dreams and at his continued wallowing in his ocean of denial. Part of the sadness is knowing that Ah has frequently expressed a desire to see me dead while I continue to pray for him and want nothing but recovery for the man.

I have no doubts about this. I know life will continue to good and I will continue my personal growth and self understanding.

I anticipate the actual hearing will be rather anticlimatic since its supposed to last all of 5-10 minutes and I will be surprised if AH is there.

strongerwoman

sending you strength and PEACE.

stillsearching

best of luck...

cmc

It's a big event in your life; one tied to alot of emotions and memories. I'll be thinking of you and hoping it goes by quickly and as pain-free as possible.

CatsPajamas

Even though mine was over way before it was over, I had a lot of mixed emotions on the day. I was glad it was done, I was sad, I was excited to see what my new life would look like, and I was scared to death to see what my new life would look like.

The key is to allow yourself to FEEL them. And we'll all be right there with you so I hope they have you in a fairly big courtroom!

Hugs
Cats

peaceteach

Good luck, Barb! I will be thinking of you

prodigal

The death of our dreams is full of grief and lots of other emotions. Keep praying for him, regardless of what he says or does. He's a sick man filled with self-loathing and he's projecting it onto you. Yes, you are better being through with him. I imagine feelings of sadness will crop up from time to time out of the blue. I know that's what happened to me long after I had left my exAH. I finally figured out I wasn't grieving over the loss of him; I was grieving over the piece of me that I had given away - and left behind - in a failed relationship.

Barbara52

Thank you all. I will indeed be carying you all with me tomorrow.

Janitw

Good Luck Hunny.....I know it will be a tough day and I will be thinking of you.

Chrysalis123

Barbara, like someone else said, imagine us there walking in with you, waiting with you, and sitting with you during the actual proceeding surrounding you with serenity, peace, and love. Prayers.

Spiritual Seeker

Barbara- it is really over; probably hard to believe even though you've reached acceptance.
This is not how you thought your life would be on June 18, 2008.

But I can tell that you are positive and embracing your life just as it is.
Best wishes as you move on.

GiveLove

Barbara,
Sending you my best for tomorrow. Just another stop on your journey to healing.
Hugs,
GL

Kindeyes

Hey Barbara
You haven't lost your dreams. They have simply changed.
gentle hugs

kermit

:Va004: Hey wheres my Hug?


Anyway thinking of you and hope and streghth for tomorrow

i4getsm

I read a blog today that talked about what we might call our "Plan B"...when something happens in our lives that we just couldn't imagine. In our mind, now we're on Plan B because this isn't how we imagined our lives would work out. Trust that even as bad as it gets that God has always had a plan for you...something greater than you can imagine. It may be our Plan B but it's been God's plan all along. (((HUGS)))

I'll be there with you in spirit. I'll be going through this in the coming year, so know that you are not alone in your feelings. Hope it goes as smooth as possible.

geees poncho

thumbs up, easy does it, one day at a time, your HP will be right beside you.
God Bless
be good to your self
maybe a hot fudge sunday

SailorKaren

Blessings and strength to you tomorrow. My first marriage ended quietly in court. I cried afterward and never looked back. Let us know how it went.

bookwyrm

good luck in court Barbara. :ghug3

freeflower

Your such an inspiration to others, such a strong lady...hugs to you.

Bernadette

Good Luck today Barb--
(((hugs)))
Peace,
B.