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Join Date: Jun 2008
Location: Vancouver Washington
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Lost
Hello im just finding out what a monster i have made out of myself!!! I was sure i didnt have the disease of alcoholism. But i was in denial the whole time. It took me wreaking my car with my daughter in it while i was drunk,to open my eyes that i had a problem!!! Thank god no one was hurt. I just moved back in with my mother, lost my job,lost my car,my licence, envolved in a very codepentent relationship i just feel so lost. Im just trying to forgive myself but its hard when you have everyone around you that doesnt trust you anymore and im the cause of all the problems!!! HELP i dont know what to do...
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Join Date: May 2008
Location: Florida
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Hi Rachel,
Welcome! You have found a great site with wonderful people who are extremely supportive. Please stick around, read the threads and let us know what we can do to help you! When I joined the site just a couple of weeks ago, I was glued to the forums and found a lot of wisdom and strength from the folks here.
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Welcome! You have found a great site with wonderful people who are extremely supportive. Please stick around, read the threads and let us know what we can do to help you! When I joined the site just a couple of weeks ago, I was glued to the forums and found a lot of wisdom and strength from the folks here.
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Attitude of Gratitude
Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: Dayton, Ohio
Posts: 2,305
Glad you found us Rachael. The first thing to do is to admit that you are an alcoholic. It sounds like it's still pretty hard for you to admit. It was for most of us.
Have you ever been to an AA Meeting? For me, I have to incorporate AA into my program of Recovery. You can google AA meetings and schedules for your area or call your local AA office. The beauty of the internet is that all of these numbers are just a click away.
Try not to beat yourself up. I know it's hard. You have a disease. The disease of alcoholism. If you had diabetes, would you feel the same way?
It took awhile for the distrust to build up so it's going to take time for people to see that you want help, are getting help and that you are committed to your Recovery.
I hope you'll continue to post, read the stickies and just know that Recovery is possible. Stick around, miracles happen every day.
God Bless,
Judy
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Join Date: Jun 2008
Location: Scottsdale, AZ
Posts: 201
Welcome!
Hi Rachel, I am glad you found this place...wish I had when I got my DUI!
I know how you feel and you need to focus on getting thru the DUI and your getting your licence back...It gets better belive me it does!
I know how you feel and you need to focus on getting thru the DUI and your getting your licence back...It gets better belive me it does!
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Join Date: Aug 2005
Location: Left Coast
Posts: 454
Hi Rachael and welcome. I have been where you are now and i know how it feels. Lost every thing and no one trusted me including my mom. What did i expect, couldn't even trust my own thinking even though i repeatedly tried. Sounds like the time to start attacking this disease is past due.
Good news is you are here and can start now,a full on frontal attack. Just as your life has revolved around alcohol now it must revolve on recovery. Since you are not working how about enrolling in a government assisted program(counseling, addictions Doctor, in/out patient rehabilitation etc) which would tie in nicely with your new Friends at AA.
Good luck to you and congratulations on working to wards sober living.
Good news is you are here and can start now,a full on frontal attack. Just as your life has revolved around alcohol now it must revolve on recovery. Since you are not working how about enrolling in a government assisted program(counseling, addictions Doctor, in/out patient rehabilitation etc) which would tie in nicely with your new Friends at AA.
Good luck to you and congratulations on working to wards sober living.
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Join Date: Jan 2008
Location: Seattle, WA
Posts: 486
Welcome,
Don't worry about forgiving yourself right now, just start simple, don't drink for 24 hours and go to an AA meeting.
Next, think about what you are willing to do to get and remain sober. You may not know yet which is fine. Listen, learn and then take action.
Thank you for your post and keep coming back.
Don't worry about forgiving yourself right now, just start simple, don't drink for 24 hours and go to an AA meeting.
Next, think about what you are willing to do to get and remain sober. You may not know yet which is fine. Listen, learn and then take action.
Thank you for your post and keep coming back.
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Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: SF Bay area, CA
Posts: 99,772
After relapsing over the weekend, after 18 days sober, I'm now trying again to stop drinking. I'm ashamed of myself and want to stop drinking so badly. I will pray for us both that we can stop drinking and stay sober.
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
Join Date: Jun 2002
Location: Serene In Dixie
Posts: 36,740
Yes... this is a difficult time for you
You do have things to be graeful for however.
You and your daughter were not injured
Your Mom allowed you to come home
You now know you need to quit drinking.
Welcome to SR!
You do have things to be graeful for however.
You and your daughter were not injured
Your Mom allowed you to come home
You now know you need to quit drinking.
Welcome to SR!
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Join Date: Aug 2005
Location: UK
Posts: 18,299
Originally Posted by CarolD 
You and your daughter were not injured
Your Mom allowed you to come home
You now know you need to quit drinking.
Welcome Rachael, as a book title puts it you have to 'start from where you are', we all do.
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Join Date: Nov 2006
Location: Fredericksburg, Va.
Posts: 9,730
Welcome to SR Rachael.
Lost!!! Oh yea, I can relate to that!!! Alcohol took me to a place I did not want to be! I wanted out but was lost, I had no idea what to do, here is a real brief timeline of what I did.
1. Saw a doctor and was totally honest with him about my drinking, he told me I needed to go to detox.
2. I went into detox, in detox they told me if I wanted a chance to stay sober I needed to go to at least 90 AA meetings in 90 days and get a sponsor.
3. I went to over 90 AA meetings in 90 days and got a sponsor. In AA they told me if I wanted a real chance at long term sobriety I should work the steps with a sponsor.
4. I worked the steps with my sponsor, in step 12 my sponsor explained that the best way for me to keep what I now had was to give it away to other alcoholics.
5. Today I am a sponsor of 2 other alcoholics.
Today I am free of the obsession for alcohol and I am free of my self centeredness, I am happier then I have been in over 30 years.
I came to where I am at today thanks to my Higher Power and the program of AA. I would still be drunk if I had not been lost and became willing to do what ever it took for me to get and stay sober.
Are you willing to do what ever it takes to get and stay sober?
If you are, there are solutions, AA is the one that worked for me.
Lost!!! Oh yea, I can relate to that!!! Alcohol took me to a place I did not want to be! I wanted out but was lost, I had no idea what to do, here is a real brief timeline of what I did.
1. Saw a doctor and was totally honest with him about my drinking, he told me I needed to go to detox.
2. I went into detox, in detox they told me if I wanted a chance to stay sober I needed to go to at least 90 AA meetings in 90 days and get a sponsor.
3. I went to over 90 AA meetings in 90 days and got a sponsor. In AA they told me if I wanted a real chance at long term sobriety I should work the steps with a sponsor.
4. I worked the steps with my sponsor, in step 12 my sponsor explained that the best way for me to keep what I now had was to give it away to other alcoholics.
5. Today I am a sponsor of 2 other alcoholics.
Today I am free of the obsession for alcohol and I am free of my self centeredness, I am happier then I have been in over 30 years.
I came to where I am at today thanks to my Higher Power and the program of AA. I would still be drunk if I had not been lost and became willing to do what ever it took for me to get and stay sober.
Are you willing to do what ever it takes to get and stay sober?
If you are, there are solutions, AA is the one that worked for me.
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