It's Been 3 Years
bella
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Join Date: Jul 2005
Location: G.T
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It's Been 3 Years
Hello Family.
It's Been 3 Years Since I've Logged On Sr. Nothings Changed Out There The Ending Results Are Misery & Pain.... Today I've Realized How Blessed I Must Be To Still Be Able To Come Back To This Program Alive And Healthy. Anyways, I Recognized The Main Reason For My Relapses, Is Because I Am Not Consistant Working The Program. I Have 24 Days Of No Crack Cocaine And Beer Only Because I Do The Same Things That I Did Yesterday. I Wake Up Every Morning Thanking God That I Woke Up Clean And Sober. Also Ask Him Through Out The Day To Do Whatever He Needs To Do To Help Me Stay Clean And Sober. Last Night I Was In So Much Pain, You Know The Kind Of Pain I Would Get High/drunk Over. Instead, I Layed By The Hot Tub And Asked God To Take Away My Pain And Then It Hit Me Why Would I Want To Ask Him To Do That, If I Need To Feel The Pain Order To Get Through It. So I Asked Him If He Would Stay Right By My Side With Me And Go Through My Pain With Me. If I Get High/drunk All Bets Are Off. I Won't Have No Life And My Pain Will Deteriate Into No Soul Again. I Think I'm Going A Little Too Deep So I'll Call It A Night.. It Feels Great To Be Back.
Everyone Have A Blessed Night
It's Been 3 Years Since I've Logged On Sr. Nothings Changed Out There The Ending Results Are Misery & Pain.... Today I've Realized How Blessed I Must Be To Still Be Able To Come Back To This Program Alive And Healthy. Anyways, I Recognized The Main Reason For My Relapses, Is Because I Am Not Consistant Working The Program. I Have 24 Days Of No Crack Cocaine And Beer Only Because I Do The Same Things That I Did Yesterday. I Wake Up Every Morning Thanking God That I Woke Up Clean And Sober. Also Ask Him Through Out The Day To Do Whatever He Needs To Do To Help Me Stay Clean And Sober. Last Night I Was In So Much Pain, You Know The Kind Of Pain I Would Get High/drunk Over. Instead, I Layed By The Hot Tub And Asked God To Take Away My Pain And Then It Hit Me Why Would I Want To Ask Him To Do That, If I Need To Feel The Pain Order To Get Through It. So I Asked Him If He Would Stay Right By My Side With Me And Go Through My Pain With Me. If I Get High/drunk All Bets Are Off. I Won't Have No Life And My Pain Will Deteriate Into No Soul Again. I Think I'm Going A Little Too Deep So I'll Call It A Night.. It Feels Great To Be Back.
Everyone Have A Blessed Night
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