Need your prayers
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Join Date: May 2008
Location: Michigan
Posts: 321
I don't even know where to start. I have only ruined my life, and I am too ashamed to go tell the people I love, that I am an alcoholic. NO ONE in my life, knows. No one. No one. All of my life, it has been a "secret", the "southern thing". I "came out" to all of you, and, that was a horrible thing, to me. I was afraid of even speaking truth. But my fear of "coming out" to the (extended) family, scares me to death. (I have no "family", I only have 90 year old aunts, and one severely warped sister.)
So, to deal with it, I am drinking again. Not a lot, just a bottle of wine a night. Well that sounds stupid. It's a BIG bottle. I finish it off every night.
Daddio, are you there???
Honu
So, to deal with it, I am drinking again. Not a lot, just a bottle of wine a night. Well that sounds stupid. It's a BIG bottle. I finish it off every night.
Daddio, are you there???
Honu
You only have to tell once, the sooner you do, the anguish over the task will end. You are not alone...
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Join Date: Aug 2007
Location: Upstate New York
Posts: 51,560
Honu, you desperately need some relief from the burden you've put on yourself. Trying to keep this secret is hurting you deeply. There is no shame in having a disease. Hold your head up high - you have so much to be proud of. You've finally sought help, as difficult as it is for you. That's huge. It's terrible the pressures put on us by our well meaning famiilies and the way we're raised. To this day my mother will not acknowledge that I'm an alcoholic - she's cold and remote to me ever since I went into de-tox years ago. I suppose it's seen as some sort of defect by some people. But we know better. The more education you get on the subject, the better you'll feel about yourself.
where the light is
Join Date: Dec 2007
Location: Ontario, Canada
Posts: 2,763
I believe that it is so important that you unburden yourself to someone who understands. After five months, I do still carry some shame but it is minimal, nothing to drink over. I started by opening up to an alcohol addictions counsellor and dialing that AA hotline number - 100% confidential. You are not alone. There are people that will help, won't judge you at all, understand perfectly what you are going through, will help you put it in proper perspective. These were the "baby steps" I took and it was the beginning of a truly better life.
It starts by reaching out.
Take good care.
It starts by reaching out.
Take good care.
Life is Grand
Join Date: Feb 2007
Location: Michigan
Posts: 2,039
I am well, thank you, I remember the feelings you have now, the good thing is, this can be the last time you ever feel this way!!! I know it is so hard to quit, I struggled for almost 6 years trying to quit before it finally sank in to my thick skull...if I don't drink, I won't feel bad. Sounds simple to most, but we are different, for an Alcoholic not to drink, is NOT normal, it is a hard learned process. Fortunately, we are not alone in our struggles, help is always close. Keep trying, it does get easier, I promise.
Cathy
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Join Date: May 2008
Location: england
Posts: 356
giving up
hello honu
havent spoken to you b4 but jus wanted to say it's ok.. you are definately not alone, i think this sites great cos there really's so much experience and genuine caring here
i'm also back at sq1 (heroin addict) but 2moro is a new day....
hope you're feeling a bit better today honey
light up the darkness (bob marley)
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havent spoken to you b4 but jus wanted to say it's ok.. you are definately not alone, i think this sites great cos there really's so much experience and genuine caring here
i'm also back at sq1 (heroin addict) but 2moro is a new day....
hope you're feeling a bit better today honey
light up the darkness (bob marley)
Karma:ghug3
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