Today is the day..
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Today is the day..
Hey All- Well...today begins the process I've been fearing for the last 30 days...I have a mtg with the powers that be regarding the status of my job. I may lose it..I may not. At this point its really beyond my control. I've had the same job for 20 years...10 years until retirement...I am so SCARED and emotionally raw right now. I am trying to turn it over...trying to stay in today and not "catastrophize" and get into the doom and gloom thinking about the future...I'm staying close and talking to people close to me...trying to focus on what I can change not what I can't....really, I am so nervous...so ashamed that I put myself and my family in this position...but they told me in treatment that no matter what happens I do have a future...I'm not a bad person...I'm a sick person trying to get well....but I'm really struggling with fear right now...thanks for listening.
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You are in my prayers as well Rob. This part of our recovery is always the hardest, I am in your boat right now, but mine are the impending legal and relationship problems. I don't think we ever knowingly go out and hurt our loved ones like we do, it is the insanity of the addiction my friend. And it hurts like hell......a sane person would NOT have these things happen that we have and go back and pick up our drug of choice....
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Location: Butte, America
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you're gonna be fine.
You're not alone.
You've grabbed the most important thing in life -
and that *IS*- LIFE...
*it* is going to be fine.
let the universe unfold, hon.
*this* is what it took ...
for you to pay attention.
That fight is now over.
Now let what the universe has wanted to do all along ...
... happen.
It's hard to 'own' it -
Magic man is right about that.
Release and be willing.
YOu could be so much worse off this moment.
You are today something you haven't been
in a long time.
Hang on to that hon.
Because that is TRUE wealth.
Everything is exactly as it should be.
You're not alone.
You've grabbed the most important thing in life -
and that *IS*- LIFE...
*it* is going to be fine.
let the universe unfold, hon.
*this* is what it took ...
for you to pay attention.
That fight is now over.
Now let what the universe has wanted to do all along ...
... happen.
It's hard to 'own' it -
Magic man is right about that.
Release and be willing.
YOu could be so much worse off this moment.
You are today something you haven't been
in a long time.
Hang on to that hon.
Because that is TRUE wealth.
Everything is exactly as it should be.
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Best to you, Rob
Treatment can be such a total positive, it sucks to have to deal with that fear.
I'm hoping your employer sees it as a positive as well. Does your employer have an EAP?
Hope to hear good news later today.
warren
Treatment can be such a total positive, it sucks to have to deal with that fear.
I'm hoping your employer sees it as a positive as well. Does your employer have an EAP?
Hope to hear good news later today.
warren
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Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: Canada
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but they told me in treatment that no matter what happens I do have a future...I'm not a bad person...I'm a sick person trying to get well....
Amen to that!
Isnt it a cool thing, that even though you have fear...you can still see that you DO have a future, that you are NOT a bad person, and you are a sick person trying to get well.
Im whispering prayers for you. I know it sounds stupid, but things really will turn out the way they are supposed to.
Amen to that!
Isnt it a cool thing, that even though you have fear...you can still see that you DO have a future, that you are NOT a bad person, and you are a sick person trying to get well.
Im whispering prayers for you. I know it sounds stupid, but things really will turn out the way they are supposed to.
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