stephensmom

I want to thank you all for your kind words and support. I am sorry that I haven't been able to respond to anyone. This has been an extremely tragic time. I never thought that it would come to this. I always thought that he would be ok eventually.

People say that he committed suicide but I feel that it was his disease that killed him. I don't think that he would have done what he did if he wasn't under the influence.

Again thank you all for listening.

lightseeker

So glad to hear from you - I've had you in my thoughts and prayers. There is no doubt that it was the disease that took him no matter what you hear anyone else ever say. It is a wretched and deplorable disease that seems like it takes the best ones and puts its claws into them. Drugs truly are the work of an evil and dark force. It's like a separate entity that insidiously creeps it's way into so many sensitive and wonderful people.

Take care of yourself and don't worry about responding to anyone. Please know that you are being help up in prayer as you go through this. We remain here for you.

Lots of love, Donna

peaceteach

Great to see you, Stephensmom. I'm glad you took some time for yourself to come here and receive some love and hugs. I support your beliefs, sister. You are his MOM, and you know firsthand how badly distorted their thinking gets on drugs. Perhaps his death has shown at least one other young person where addiction and continued use can lead. Perhaps even here on this forum. I hope you keep coming back, if only to let us help you through the grieving process. Take good care of yourself, lady.

suki44883

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss, Stephensmom. I wish you peace.

Impurrfect

(((Stephensmom)))

Thank you so much for checking in with us. You and your family have been in my prayers.

I DO believe it is the addiction that took his life. There were a few times, in my life, when I was suicidal and I was totally under the influence.

I do hope that you will come here and let us walk through this with you. I know we aren't physically there, but there are so many people here who love and care for you. We are here for you.

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

helpus

(((Stephensmom)))

serenityqueen

bookmiser

((((((((Stephensmom)))))))))

Again, let me say how very sorry I am for what happened.
It's such a tragedy to lose someone you love. Even more horrific,
to lose them to this terrible disease.
If you remember, I lost 1 brother to drowning. He was 22 and a drug addict.
I also had a brother that died from a heart attack. He was an alcoholic.
Just know that you and your family are in my heart and prayers.



If you'd like to talk, I'm here for you.
Hugs,

bigredme

Stephensmom,
I'm really glad you checked in as you have been on my mind. Again, I'm so terribly sorry for your loss.
bigredme

mjpaao

(((stephensmom)))
I'm so glad to hear from you. There is not a doubt that it is the disease that took your son. Marie Osmond was on tv one night and called addiction a plague...it's the first time I've heard that from anyone other than myself. It is a horrible disease, there is no other that takes our loved ones from us like addiction.
Stephensmom, my prayers are with you. Please stop by when you can, I truly care and hope you will let us know how you're doing. Your hp is with you, and your son is at peace.

pjbs55

I'm glad you checked in and let us know how you are doing. You never leave my mind, and are in my prayers everytime I say them. That has been alot lately. I agree that the disease killed him and that he did not take his own life. Those of us who love an addict know that if they were clean they would not do that.
Please keep coming back and let us help you through this. I am here for you if you need someone to talk to.
Love and hugs from another mom

cece1960

I believe you are absolutely right (((Stephensmom)))
And I also believe that no one knows, like a mother knows.
You and your family remain in my heart and in my prayers.

MtnGirl65

Always, always know that it was the disease. I discovered my son's addiction after his very serious suicide attempt. He is in LT rehab now. He says that he would never do such a thing now--that he wasn't thinking like himself. I just hope this gives you a little comfort that everyone hurts for you and we are praying for you.

notsleepingwell

ihatethis

I'm also glad you checked in. Although we never meet one another the love is real. You've been on my mind every day since your first post. I don't know what else to say other than I feel that you will see each other again and he will be the boy you remember.

Much love and compassion.

Amy

greeteachday

Been thinking of you and praying for you and your family that you may find comfort.

Done_With_It

I am so glad you checked in.
Your in our thoughts...

Thank You for sharing with us also,
I know it is not easy.
I agree with you and others though,
the end result was a direct cause of the drugs.
I honestly believe that would have been my result as well
if I had not found SR when I did.
The stories and the sharing keep so many going and touch
more people than we will ever know.
Your pain will reach someone and give them the courage to
reach out and find recovery.
I promise you that.
So Thank You from the bottom of my heart from me and Many Many Others
for sharing your pain....
I truly believe he is out of his now..

cookconfay

Hugs & prayers to you and yours! I am so sorry you are having to go through this. I know it's not any consolation right now, but he's not having to fight that damn disease anymore! I am recovering for over 10 yrs now. I thought seriously about suicide many times, I laid in a hospital bed and had a doctor in my face telling me what I was doing was just a slow form of suicide. It is nothing short of a miracle that drugs and the choices I made didn't kill me! I have lost many friends to this disease. I hate it and I wish you peace and know I will keep you close in my heart.

lil516

You and your family continue to be in my thoughts and prayers
(((Blessings)))

Lobo

(((((Stephensmom)))))

It's so good to hear from you. You have been in my thoughts and prayers.
Anytime you need to talk, come in and sit a while, the light is always on.

Love and prayers...........Lo