Sheesh How many times can I be a newbie?
Adjusting my Sails
Join Date: Jan 2008
Posts: 1,021
Welcome Back.
You can go out and experiment as many times as you feel necessary and we will be here anxiously waiting to hear if it has gotten any better for you our there and if you try something different this time we can't accuse you of being insane (doing the same thing over and over etc.) I'm glad to see your back and still giving it a go.
You can go out and experiment as many times as you feel necessary and we will be here anxiously waiting to hear if it has gotten any better for you our there and if you try something different this time we can't accuse you of being insane (doing the same thing over and over etc.) I'm glad to see your back and still giving it a go.
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Join Date: Apr 2008
Location: massachusetts
Posts: 2,216
My turn to come clean
I have to come clean and say that I blew it last night. We were out all day with friends, who drank all day and last night I got really resentful that I CAN't drink, and so I did. REALLY REALLY stupid. But I'm back here today and looking forward. My husband is a saint and we discussed my weak time (5 to 7 pm) and he is going to help me (again) one day at a time, one hour at a time if need be. I really need to be able to admit when I'm on the brink and ask for help. Hopefully, I won't have to fess up again. Thank you all for bearing with me!
Nohangovers4me--glad you are here. Some people aren't fortunate enough to make it back. Just focus on today. Don't put limitations on your recovery. It takes what it takes. It took me more than 3 attempts to get sober. Hang in there!
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Join Date: Mar 2007
Location: Mommyland OHIO
Posts: 99
Thanks everyone!
As for what I have learned or what is different. I am really not sure to be honest.
I just know that I am sick and tired all the time. And life would be brighter and things would get done if I remain sober. I am an evening drinker so I plan to keep myself busy during that time! I may even hang out here when my husband is on night shift.
I can't keep doing this.......it's not working for me and I feel like a lousy person.
As for what I have learned or what is different. I am really not sure to be honest.
I just know that I am sick and tired all the time. And life would be brighter and things would get done if I remain sober. I am an evening drinker so I plan to keep myself busy during that time! I may even hang out here when my husband is on night shift.
I can't keep doing this.......it's not working for me and I feel like a lousy person.
But you made it back!! Hooray! I always have this image (when I think about myself going back out) of being an astraunout (that can spell) and floating out in darkness with just this little tether to pull me back in.
You're back in! You can breath again! I'm glad you're safe now!
You're back in! You can breath again! I'm glad you're safe now!
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
Join Date: Jun 2002
Location: Serene In Dixie
Posts: 36,740
Action....recovery takes real live action!
Turn off the PC...get to a live meeting
for whatever your addiction is.
There is hope and healing and joy
to be found. Just go and listen.
SR is a great supplement to life.
It's not life.
You too can stop the cycle of misery.
Please don't hesitate to explore.
Congratulations for not giving up.
Turn off the PC...get to a live meeting
for whatever your addiction is.
There is hope and healing and joy
to be found. Just go and listen.
SR is a great supplement to life.
It's not life.
You too can stop the cycle of misery.
Please don't hesitate to explore.
Congratulations for not giving up.
I have had some HARD relapses, and it seems the consequences of my drinking also get progressively worse. I guess, I found this simple line helpful: If you have decided you want what we have and are willing to go to any length to get it. Then you are ready to follow these simple guidelines for recovery. - the aa bigbook (pauls translation)
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Join Date: Mar 2007
Location: Mommyland OHIO
Posts: 99
One thing I will do differently is to find something to do during those hours in the evening that I want to drink.
Day one down..........feeling sleepy........feeling wonderful though that I made it day first!
Day one down..........feeling sleepy........feeling wonderful though that I made it day first!
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Join Date: Apr 2008
Location: massachusetts
Posts: 2,216
Hi Nohangovers4me!
When I posted yesterday on your thread about my own relapse I was trying to say that you are not alone and that this is hard...sometimes excruciatingly so. I, too, am an evening drinker, so, with my husband's help, I hope to fill up the "danger zone" with activities that get me out of my own head. I'm on day two as well, so let's hold cyber-hands and stick this out together! :ghug
When I posted yesterday on your thread about my own relapse I was trying to say that you are not alone and that this is hard...sometimes excruciatingly so. I, too, am an evening drinker, so, with my husband's help, I hope to fill up the "danger zone" with activities that get me out of my own head. I'm on day two as well, so let's hold cyber-hands and stick this out together! :ghug
You know when I got out of detox they told me "If you want a chance to stay sober you need to go to at least 90 AA meetings a day and get a sponsor." I kind of balked at that when I was doing my last session with my councilor, I told him "There is no way I can go to that many meetings, I work full time and I am married with kids" my councilor asked me if I would promise to just spend as much time going to meetings as I did drinking, he told me that if I put as much time and effort into my recovery as I did into drinking I would stay sober.
I was and remain willing to go to any length to stay sober.
I was and remain willing to go to any length to stay sober.
If you have decided you want what we have and are willing to go to any length to get it -- then you are ready to take certain steps.
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