4MY3

Me and mine went away on a wonderful weekend alone, no kids. I had not had a drink for 7days But saturday evening came a bottle of bubblie came with the room and I, we enduldged, sat in the hot tub and went for more drinks. The evening was good but I drank AGAIN woke up the next morning and had forgotten part of the night & what happened to my desert. I hate the fact that I can't just Stop and not drink. I hate the fact that it seems to be the only thing that get's me to a happy pain free place.My hubby uses too so I guess that make's it harder too. I thought I was doing so good and I let my self down one more time.So Sunday was my new start date One More Time!:atv

1963comet

I know how you feel. I have done this before also.

This is why people recommend that you should stay away from alcohol in the beginnig. It took along time for me to trust myself. Today I still do not hang around people that drink. But I do not feel tempted any more.

I know you did not put yourself in a place to drink. Sounds like it just happened that way. It was the mistakes I made in the past that made me learn about myself.

Missymae737

I have been where you are at many times...This is especially true and sad during early recovery...I really felt lost and useless as a human being...Drinking did take me to a pain free place, however it was short lived... Soon I was drinking only to pass out and avoid withdrawal...I had to and wanted to sober up sometime before I killed myself with the poison...

You can stop! Latch on to all the support that is waiting for you whether it be here or AA...OR other support groups that council you in addiction...

I am thinking of you...

YOU can live sober...

sailorjohn

Just a little observation, notice you did this little thing here with the "I, we"
Maybe I'm reading something into this that simply isn't there, but you aren't implying that your husband is somehow responsible for your drinking, are you?
Easiest thing for an alcoholic to do is find excuses to drink, we all did it while we were out there.

Anna

Hi and glad you're back.

It's all about making choices and starting with 'drinking is not an option'.

It's really hard to accept that you cannot drink, but it can also be freeing.

And, this is something you need to do for yourself. If your husband does not want to stop drinking, you can still do it.

Hevyn

Went through a similar thing myelf this past weekend. All I can tell you is, it does get easier and you feel less resentful as you go along - I have almost 3 months and feel much stronger now than I did even a month ago. The more you go through tempting times and make it through, you will see that you CAN enjoy your life without being anesthetized.