30 Days for Negative Man
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30 Days for Negative Man
So, here's my share:
Today is 30 days for me. That's plus a previous 40 days, with 5 days of the dreaded "research" in between.
I've been going to AA meetings often. They make me feel better, especially when I share. I have been open about my situation with people I trust. Tomorrow, I'm going to tell my parents about the fact that I'm an alcoholic. I'm nervous about it.
In these 30 days I've felt horrible, elated, invulnerable, humble, hopeless, confident, grateful, angry, sad, and happy. Mostly, I've simply felt alive. Like I'm part of the human race again. I'm not *checking out* anymore, even though that is still tempting. Understanding that this temptation will always be there is a humbling thing. One day at a time means a lot more to me nowadays than it did even a few weeks ago.
So, 30 days down. I can promise myself and you all a successful 31. After that, who knows? But while I'm sober and understanding that I'm a long way from walking alone, I'd like to thank everyone here for all of your help, support, good cheer, shared stories, and just plain positive wishes for me and everyone on this board. I'd still be a miserable wretch without everyone's help.
Not to be melodramatic, but I really love everyone here. And it's helped me love myself too. Thanks. Rock on!
-- NM
Today is 30 days for me. That's plus a previous 40 days, with 5 days of the dreaded "research" in between.
I've been going to AA meetings often. They make me feel better, especially when I share. I have been open about my situation with people I trust. Tomorrow, I'm going to tell my parents about the fact that I'm an alcoholic. I'm nervous about it.
In these 30 days I've felt horrible, elated, invulnerable, humble, hopeless, confident, grateful, angry, sad, and happy. Mostly, I've simply felt alive. Like I'm part of the human race again. I'm not *checking out* anymore, even though that is still tempting. Understanding that this temptation will always be there is a humbling thing. One day at a time means a lot more to me nowadays than it did even a few weeks ago.
So, 30 days down. I can promise myself and you all a successful 31. After that, who knows? But while I'm sober and understanding that I'm a long way from walking alone, I'd like to thank everyone here for all of your help, support, good cheer, shared stories, and just plain positive wishes for me and everyone on this board. I'd still be a miserable wretch without everyone's help.
Not to be melodramatic, but I really love everyone here. And it's helped me love myself too. Thanks. Rock on!
-- NM
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