least

I want a drink so bad I can't stand it. Daughter and I just had a big blow up about her ------- dad. We need proof of the child support he pays monthly to get our food stamps redetermined. He's always been highly critical of me and loses no chance to put me down. We've been separated ten years and he still likes to stick the knife in. I'm afraid he will tear me down some more, and I don't need that now. So I asked her to call him and ask for the proof but not say it's for food stamps. He told her that she didn't need proof of the support for her financial aid, which is what she said she needed it for. So I'm stuck between facing the tiger myself or just making do with less food stamps due to not being able to prove the current child support.

I know, you can't fix it. I just had to vent so I'd be less subject to drinking. Thanks for listening.

Aysha

CarolD

Hmmm..
if he pays by check...what about your bank
statement and canceled checks?
If it deducted from his pay..
.the office bookkeeper would have a record.

Just thinking out loud....

I do hope you manage to not drink
recovery rocks!....

1963comet

Venting can be a release, glad you vented here. Done that myself a couple times. A hug for you.

Dee74

hang in there least...you know as well as I do, drinking won't fix nothin'

D

least

I don't feel so 'antsy' anymore and not tempted to drink. Pleased and a bit surprised that I won out over the cravings. Didn't think I had it in me...

353

Hi least. Just so you know...if he's highly critical of you that's his personal defect and completely out of your control. The great thing about that though, you are only responsible for your actions not his. I found out that when I quit taking responsibility for everyone else and everything around me, the load of guilt and shame began to decrease and I could begin doing the right thing, which is take responsibility for my actions.

I've heard it described as "keeping my side of the street clean".

I need a new perspective on life. I need to have forgiveness. When people do something or say something to hurt me I need to forgive them, because haven't I hurt others? Isn't there enough proof in my life of wrongdoing that I can come to an understanding of why people do the things they do. I know when I hurt other people I tried to rationalize it or minimize it, but I always knew and it was killing me. Most of the reason I drank was to hide from myself, to just make the idea of me go away.

I need to forgive.....if I don't it will kill me.

To me the two most important words at every meeting I attend and church on Sunday are AS WE...."forgive me my trespasses AS (just like) WE forgive those who trespass against us".

If I find myself entangled in anger, despair and a growing resentment it's because God is answering that prayer.

Peace least and God bless

warrens

Least

Eleanor Roosevelt: "No one can make us feel inferior without our permission."

Peace

warren

nogard

Yeah venting works