crafty

I Have been living the fast 40 for 34 years and am afraid I am living on borrowed time. Like anything else that you over do it is starting to show the scares. Sober now for three days and I am not feeling too good. I know a drink would get rid of the pain.
Is it normal to be afraid of who you might be without something that has been a part of you for so long?
How long does it take before you start to feel better?

PrinceLoner

30 days or so and be afraid--very afraid--of who you might be. I've seen perfectly terrible drunks turn into perfectly normal people and that, my overly pickled friend, scares us more than death.

best

Welcome Crafty

All you ask and are experiencing is normal. We each grow past them at what is right for us. Some it can be a week, others it can be a few months.
For over all growth...it can be a year before we see the improvements but others can notice them in short time. We live each day with ourself so we don't see the changes as fast as others see them in us.
From one who has been in your shoes and is now out the other side of that journey... I can tell you this...

It gets better each day and one day you will look back and be able to see when each change took place. While in the moment, we don't see it at the time.

Stay the path and you will see the miracle happen.

least

yes a drink might get rid of the pain, temporarily, but will bring more pain with it than it covers up. I'm on day three also and want to increase that number, one number at a time. Yes I find it scary to think of who I might be all by myself, but the drinking me wasn't that great. My normal self, whatever that is, could hardly be worse. At three days I'm over the worst of it, I just want to keep on going this way. Best of luck to you.:ghug2

Aysha

It could be like finding a long lost friend. You dont know until you try.
Anything good takes time.
Congrats on 3 days.
And welcome

CarolD

Welcome to SR PrinceLoner

serenityqueen

Best said it pretty well, all of these thoughts, feelings and fears are normal.

Right now, your entire person - body, heart, mind, soul, emotions . . . are going through major changes. Whatever you do, don't pick up that drink you naturally want so bad. It's what we were used to doing when something felt uncomfortable, or good, bad, boring, scary, new, old . . .

Us alcoholics/addicts don't like change. It's uncomfortable. I was scared too. I had no idea who I was. I started using when I was still a child, I was only 11 years old. When I got clean after 32 years, I had no idea who I was, all I knew was my name, and even that had changed with 2 divorces behind me! lol

Just remember, One Day at a Time.

Don't worry about tomorrow and for goodness sakes, don't let yesterday kick you in the butt!

Hope we see you here through your incrediable Journey that I never, ever want to stop discovering myself in.

God Bless & Thank God . . .Just for Today,
Judy:ghug

CarolD

Crafty....good to see you did start a new thread!
Thanks for sharing part of your story.

Physically I started to feel better by day 4.
Mentally... it was a bit longer for me.

Depression is why I began my AA recovery.
What an awesome adventure it turned out to be

CAPTAINZING2000

a drink is throwing salt on an open wound. It doesn't heal what's wrong with you

Drinking stopped me from being the best that, I could be!!!

We drank to avoid feelings
After years of not drinking, I might not like having a bad day sober but, it makes me enjoy the good days so much more now.


Taking a drink when, I have a good day isn't going to make it a better day but, taking a drink when, I'm having a bad day will make it worse

Mattcake

Welcome to SR Crafty!

I've been asking myself this question over and over as well. Well, I don't have an answer. I think maybe we're all scared of finding out who we might become in all sorts of situations. When I started drinking, and had I known what I would become, I would have been shocked and horrified. Well, I wasn't thinking back then, and I didn't think twice for a long time, even when I no longer recognized my own reflection in the mirror. But something is changing, even if I'm not quite out of the woods yet. Now, even if I'm scared, I'm looking forward to the answer.

Post a lot, read a lot, stick around

Matt

crafty

All of your support means more than you will ever know.

On my third day I think the prince put it best - I felt like a pickle - that being said I have made it through my fourth day. I got my appetite back-----and if I keep this up I am going to feel like a buttery loaf of white bread.
Will the need for carbohydrates go away before this transformation is complete?

Can anyone suggest something to help me with this new found addiction? HA HA

How long before you start to sleep again?



Crafty

best

Some of us know because others passed the same onto us.
To see another finding the same joy brightens our lives as well.

Not sure of the carb intake because I never put an effort towards that part of things as it tied in with alcohol. As a regular diet tool... water, water, water and salads to fill up on so that less carbs can fit.

As for the sleep part of things...
When drinking I wouldn't sleep...it was more of passing out.
Before starting my drinking, 5 hours would get me through.
Today when I find the need to sleep correctly, I need to be sure I do enough things through my day so I am tired when I lay down and thus go to sleep.

Congratulations on another day collected.

lovingseren

I was terrified, and for long time it kept me drinking.

I can honestly say ceasing to drink was the best gift I have ever given myself, I began a journey of self discovery, and after a couple of months found it to be awesome.

Prepare to Amaze yourself my friend.

Seren