mike123

Hi

I've been reading the forum lately and thought that I'd finally introduce myself, My name is Mike I'm from NB Canada. Well I must admit that I do have a drinking and drug problem.

I started drinking at 14 realized that I had a problem at 15 when I covered it up with minor drugs and regret being introduced to cocaine at 18.

I feel so bad and ashamed to say that today I'm 36 and still drinking and doing coke.

It's been a long rough road. For many years I'd only do weekend bings stayed clean for 4 month and was so glad but lately things have turned to the worst, I 'm drinking and drugging every day and I'm going threw hell and things are just getting worst.

Everyday I wake up and just wish that I'd have a switch that could shut off my life. I really do want to straighten up my life. But it scares me so much lately when I realize I cant stop. My strenghts, faith and hope is just no longer their.

Would appreciate some help and support here thanks

Mike

RK2007

Hi Mike, welcome to SR.

You been in touch with your doc about some help to get off the stuff you use? You should make an appointment as soon as you can.

ANGELINA243

Welcome Mike--glad you are here! There are plenty of people here who can share similar experiences--I too am a recovering alcoholic/addict. Check out the substance abuse forum as well--plenty of addicts here that have been there too-- :atv

mike123

Well a few month ago tried to fet in to rehab again...but it was full, so I had to wait a few days...finally got the call to go in and they asked me how i was doing and told them well I 've decided to go camping to retreat to all the drug drama and that iv been clean since (4 days) waiting to get admitided.

But they had to say that I was 4 days clean and no longer needed treament in detox and that i should see a outpatiant counselor.

:wtf2

well i guess rules are rules
Mike

tanyapmc

Have you tried AA or NA? Please keep posting.

CarolD

Glad you are here with us Mike...

It seems you are dually addicted
so I too strongly suggest a medical de tox.

Welcome to SR!

nogard

hi Mike and welcome to SR great advice you have been given here. Nothing to add.

Kevin

Captain Kirk

Hi Mike!
Welcome!
Lots of good advice and wisdome are shared here. You're in good company.
Let us know how you're doing. We're all here to help. :ghug
Good luck!

tkdan

Hey Mike, welcome to SR.
While it may be scary, it is a necessary revelation in order to seek help. It is good that you are reaching out for help so many people like myself think they can do it on their own. It was not until I accepted the fact that I needed outside help that I had a chance at a lasting sobriety. During my drugging days I did cocaine too. I know how addictive it is. You will find many here that you can relate to, so keep coming back and keep us posted on you progress.

adore79

Hi and welcome to SR Mike.