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Old 03-09-2008, 04:15 PM
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Praying to get better

Three days ago I ended up sloshed and don't recall much of the day. I haven't been picked up for protective custody since 2005. I was picked up for sort of an embarrasing thing three days ago. The incident happened at a local Cafe that I had been going since the 90's but I am too ashamed to step back into town.

I was under protective custody but I think "what if?" and those "what if's" are causing a lot of tension with me. My mind will come up with a thought and then it stays with me and can cause upset. Like this morning I thought "what if I did hurt someone?"

I gave my ID card to my Mother and told her to put it far away from me. I'm glad I made this move but overcoming the shame and regret I feel seems to be too much for me right now.

I am on medicine and am not suppose to drink, period. I'm a totally different person when very drunk. My medicine worked alright before my episode but now if feels like it isn't. I am back on schedule with it and I'm not sure when it will kick back in. The way my mind is, drinking is a no-option.

I'm going to hold off on making an apology until some time to the owner of the Cafe.

I'm praying for the medicne to work once again. Thanks for listening to me.
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Old 03-09-2008, 04:21 PM
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Welcome to SR RJ

I am not clear if your having a one off or... please tell us some more.

Good idea to read the stickies at the top of the forum.

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Old 03-09-2008, 05:10 PM
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Hi and Welcome,

If you feel like your medicine isn't working well, then talking to your dr is really the best option. Maybe he can offer something different or explain things to you.

And making amends at the Cafe seems like a good idea when you are ready to do it. I know that shame and guilt are horrible emotions, but dealing with your problem is the best way to get rid of those. Do this for yourself.
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Old 03-15-2008, 01:57 AM
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Sorry for being late responding.

I did send letters of apologies to the Cafe, the local brewery and a thank you, gratitude, letter to the local police.

I did have an off day on the 6th. The medicine is slowly working back in and the thoughts and emotions about the event have subsided a great deal.
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Old 03-15-2008, 05:04 AM
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It sounds like you're moving forward RJ. That's great!
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Old 03-15-2008, 11:02 AM
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Thought I would say Hi and glad things are getting better.
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