PG1968

Hey guys,
me again. I feel like I am losing it lately. ha. I am in between the thought of wanting to want to use(does that make sense?) and just suffering through this. The story is: I still don't have a job, market is rough on Graphic Designers, right now and recently lost my sponsor..The boredom, wanting to escape all of this BS, and feeling self pity, like I am missing out on going out, hanging with old friends etc..not having the daily support of a sponsor is tough. I feel like my recovery is slipping and I am not connecting to anyone in the meetings lately. I need to try some other ones. sorry my writing is so jumbled, I just have all of these feelings and I cannot get them out.

ANGELINA243

Just hang in there.....and keep posting! I'm struggling right now too--but this place has been instrumental in encouraging me to stay clean/sober for just "one more day". :ghug3

Mattcake

Keep posting PG, it might take a while to get your life back on track - I've learned to come to terms with that. The important bit is, you're sober! Focus on that accomplishment and do whatever it takes to mantain it.

Take care,

Matt

Aysha

It would be easy to get trashed and forget. But then you got double to deal with after.
Easier said than done. Hang in there. You are not alone.

Anna

Hi PG,

Hang in there!

Have you considered doing some free-lance work?

nogard

Hnag in there mate

least

dear PG, just take one step, one hour, one day at a time. that's how I"m doing it. You are not alone. I am thinking of you, as well as all the other people trying to kick these habits. take care of yourself.

xo

ROFL

Hey! I kind of get it. Feeling the same way these days. I'm a freelance writer. My work keeps coming and going, but sadly I'm letting it slip by trying to focus on my "recovery". Which I know is the right thing to do. Even though it's hard. Most of the time I just read these forums trying to keep from drinking. But drinking is what makes me do my "good" work. So how can I work and recover at the same time?

I've decided recovery is more important. Staying sober is more important. It's hard. Work is waiting (barely). But it is still there when I want it. Just concenterate on what you need.

all my best.

PG1968

still struggling, but hung in there. thanks for the support.

ROFL

Good for you PG.

29a

Hey pg, I can really relate. It's a tough market for folks in IT. I was laid off last october for 2 months. I couldn't find work to save my life. If it weren't for my girlfriend, I would have starved. It was especially rough for me because I think I base some of my identity and self worth on what I do for a living.
I literally didn't know how I was going to eat some days. I couldn't afford a cup of coffee. It was very hard on many different levels.
I didn't have to drink though, I knew it wouldn't do any good.At times, I admit, I did crave the escape.
I wish I had some big flash of blinding wisdom to give you. Like do this and it will all be better. But I don't. Some things you just have to walk through. Some lessons you just have to learn. All I can say is, it will be over sometime. You will work again, you will be sober through it, and you can help someone else through it in the future.

Get a sponsor, there's no excuse. Pray for guidance, then pick someone, if you do that you can't go wrong.

Good luck friend.