kj21

I find myself right back where i was months ago. I allowed myself to be close with my separated rah. We dated, talked daily, pretty much saw each other every day, I allowed my heart to be open to him agian after a couple of months clean time. He was the wonderful man I loved. but this last 2 weeks his words are not matching his actions. he has been late, not reachable on his phone...i think we all know the signs. He swears he is not using...but my gut tells me something is wrong, maybe he is struggling...I am wrestling with the thought of just cutting off all contact again, or slowly see where this goes...life with an addict sucks!!! if i didn't love the man he sometimes is I could walk away...but he shows me just enough of the other him to keep me hooked. hmmm kinda like hooked on drugs...
It is like as soon as he knew he had my heart again, he started to weaken his resolve to stay sober and make good choices. thanks for the vent!

Wascally Wabbit

Well, they can't fool us forever. Eventually we find out or we just get tired of the shenanagins. Us women are very tuned to what's going on. It's our gift!
Keep your eyes open and guard your heart.
You will do exactly what you need to do at just the right time.

Miss Pink

does it suck bad enough to let go?

kj21

good question Miss Pink

Abundance

Yeah... because I don't have proof that he is using or not using.... all I can rely on are my gut feelings. But the real proof is in the pudding via his actions! Let's say it wasn't drugs and it was just who he is......... would you be more tolerable?

I don't think so!