I dumped the VODKA!!!
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I dumped the VODKA!!!
For those of you who know about my stashed bottle of vodka, I just dumped it out!!!
My hands are shaking and I feel scared, angry, hysterical and relieved all at the same time.
I must be loosing it.
My hands are shaking and I feel scared, angry, hysterical and relieved all at the same time.
I must be loosing it.
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Good for you!!! Great job!!!
The "scared, angry, hysterical" is your disease talking... Its trying to tell you that your screwed now because you threw away the crutch... Its a liar.
Stay focused on the relief... Its a small iota of freedom that you have just claimed!
(...Your disease doesn't want you to be free... Evil disease...)
The "scared, angry, hysterical" is your disease talking... Its trying to tell you that your screwed now because you threw away the crutch... Its a liar.
Stay focused on the relief... Its a small iota of freedom that you have just claimed!
(...Your disease doesn't want you to be free... Evil disease...)
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bullsh1t on that evil addiction talking stuff.
there's no doctors here.
we don't know how long it's been since you last drank
we don't know how much you regularly consume...
we don't know if you've been honest in how much you're consuming
this is VODKA daily consumption we're talking here
not some yuppie microbrew import stuff from outa town...
it could also be physical.
those shakes could be warnings -
this is not something to be playing around with.
alcohol withdrawal is a dangerous thing.
this is literally life and death man.
did you contact a doc?
I don't like this playing with fire feeling, Too?
It's one thing being sober and getting cheers
it's also another to be safe and be healthy and smart.
all at the same time.
this aint' no tent revival.
I'd feel much better knowing you have a lifeline with a medical practiioner, hon. If you feel sick, shaky... go to the emergency room . Do not hesitate... you are not being weak - your body is telling you it's in trouble - you hear ?
Unnerstan, rubberband?
This is real - okay?
there's no doctors here.
we don't know how long it's been since you last drank
we don't know how much you regularly consume...
we don't know if you've been honest in how much you're consuming
this is VODKA daily consumption we're talking here
not some yuppie microbrew import stuff from outa town...
it could also be physical.
those shakes could be warnings -
this is not something to be playing around with.
alcohol withdrawal is a dangerous thing.
this is literally life and death man.
did you contact a doc?
I don't like this playing with fire feeling, Too?
It's one thing being sober and getting cheers
it's also another to be safe and be healthy and smart.
all at the same time.
this aint' no tent revival.
I'd feel much better knowing you have a lifeline with a medical practiioner, hon. If you feel sick, shaky... go to the emergency room . Do not hesitate... you are not being weak - your body is telling you it's in trouble - you hear ?
Unnerstan, rubberband?
This is real - okay?
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I agree with barb dwyer, I watched my brother withdrawing from vodka (bottle or so a day for a couple of years) he started with the shakes and in 3 days went on to hallucinations, seeing and hearing things, and total paranoia. It wasn't pretty, in fact it was downright scary. He didn't have a clue what he was doing or saying and even now doesn't remember any of it. I honestly believe he'd be dead if we hadn't got him to a doctor within those few days.
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I'm not trying to scare you, or to down play anything, hon.
I'm trying to be responsible.
Well.
I'm trying to get your attention, yes -
but I'm also trying to prevent what happened to me from happening to you.
I don't want for you what has happened to me.
I am eighteen months sober.
I detoxed alone WITH a medical lifeline.
But NOT in a detox.
I do not exaggerate about MY detox.
I SHOULD have been in a hospital.
There are people ON THIS WEBPAGE who know me,
one talks to me DAILY.
That person can verify - and will if I ask him to -
There are times I cannot remember what is said to me twenty minutes ago.
I have to be told - sometimes up to five times the same thing over and over before I can remeber ...
the simplest of things.
That is from lack of on hand medical attention from detox.
I REALLY DID have convulsions.
I REALLY DID suffer brain damage.
I"m not just seeking attention.
I REALLY AM living with the consequences of no insurance and destitution of my financial circumstance when I quit drinking.
There were other ways I could have done it.
I just didn't know them at the time.
I KNOW what I'm talking about, sister.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE don't be messing around with this.
I'm trying to be responsible.
Well.
I'm trying to get your attention, yes -
but I'm also trying to prevent what happened to me from happening to you.
I don't want for you what has happened to me.
I am eighteen months sober.
I detoxed alone WITH a medical lifeline.
But NOT in a detox.
I do not exaggerate about MY detox.
I SHOULD have been in a hospital.
There are people ON THIS WEBPAGE who know me,
one talks to me DAILY.
That person can verify - and will if I ask him to -
There are times I cannot remember what is said to me twenty minutes ago.
I have to be told - sometimes up to five times the same thing over and over before I can remeber ...
the simplest of things.
That is from lack of on hand medical attention from detox.
I REALLY DID have convulsions.
I REALLY DID suffer brain damage.
I"m not just seeking attention.
I REALLY AM living with the consequences of no insurance and destitution of my financial circumstance when I quit drinking.
There were other ways I could have done it.
I just didn't know them at the time.
I KNOW what I'm talking about, sister.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE don't be messing around with this.
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I really appreciate the fact that so many of you responded to my post.
Barb, thank you for your honesty, I really do appreciate it. I am still a little shakey and had zero concentration at work today, but other than those symptoms and cravings today, I dont feel bad. I have even been sleeping well. I am not trying to go this alone, I just havn't wanted to go down the medical road. I had to be medicated last June for withdrawls, and have even been hospitalized before for withdrawls. I am not sure why I am not experiencing such utter disscomfort this time. I am on day 6 and would think I should be turning the corner by now.
Barb, thank you for your honesty, I really do appreciate it. I am still a little shakey and had zero concentration at work today, but other than those symptoms and cravings today, I dont feel bad. I have even been sleeping well. I am not trying to go this alone, I just havn't wanted to go down the medical road. I had to be medicated last June for withdrawls, and have even been hospitalized before for withdrawls. I am not sure why I am not experiencing such utter disscomfort this time. I am on day 6 and would think I should be turning the corner by now.
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Congrats on dumping the bottle out Toomutch - I think it's really courageous. i've had stashes in the house before and I knew that if I went near them I'd drink them. I hope you are feeling better physically/mentally today - and I definately hope you seek medical attention if you need it! :ghug2
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Originally Posted by Toomutch 
I really appreciate the fact that so many of you responded to my post.
Barb, thank you for your honesty, I really do appreciate it. I am still a little shakey and had zero concentration at work today, but other than those symptoms and cravings today, I dont feel bad. I have even been sleeping well. I am not trying to go this alone, I just havn't wanted to go down the medical road. I had to be medicated last June for withdrawls, and have even been hospitalized before for withdrawls. I am not sure why I am not experiencing such utter disscomfort this time. I am on day 6 and would think I should be turning the corner by now.
Barb, thank you for your honesty, I really do appreciate it. I am still a little shakey and had zero concentration at work today, but other than those symptoms and cravings today, I dont feel bad. I have even been sleeping well. I am not trying to go this alone, I just havn't wanted to go down the medical road. I had to be medicated last June for withdrawls, and have even been hospitalized before for withdrawls. I am not sure why I am not experiencing such utter disscomfort this time. I am on day 6 and would think I should be turning the corner by now.
I'm glad you're doing ok, I was thinking about ya. Stick with it and well done x
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Originally Posted by Toomutch
I am not sure why I am not experiencing such utter disscomfort this time.
Keep up the good work, you can do it...
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