Today and the weekend
everything is already ok
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Join Date: May 2005
Location: Melbourne Victoria Australia
Posts: 19,793
Today and the weekend
today its 2 years and 9 months since I used a drug, one day at a time
freedom, choces a spirtual connection and myself at last and growing as I heal.
This weekend is convention weekend in Melbourne., spending time with the woman I met recently and starting a writing course.
Victorian Area Convention
"Courage to Change"
22nd - 24th February 2008.
Glen Eira Hall, Cnr Hawthorn & Glen Eira Rd,
Caulfield.
http://home.vicnet.net.au/~navic/NAconvention.pdf
never would have believed I could have such joy as I let go of the past and all the old tapes in my head and my spirit.
When I was using I thought you had to get a spiritual life and I tried I went to workshops and paid lots for it, learnt many different ways to meditate .... then went home and got blasted.
I understand now that I alwasy had a spritual connection it was sick as well and is getting better and stronger one day at a time.
Such joy (yes I already said that).
All this time I have been supported and loved and now I can love and support myself and others.
Kevin
freedom, choces a spirtual connection and myself at last and growing as I heal.
This weekend is convention weekend in Melbourne., spending time with the woman I met recently and starting a writing course.
Victorian Area Convention
"Courage to Change"
22nd - 24th February 2008.
Glen Eira Hall, Cnr Hawthorn & Glen Eira Rd,
Caulfield.
http://home.vicnet.net.au/~navic/NAconvention.pdf
never would have believed I could have such joy as I let go of the past and all the old tapes in my head and my spirit.
When I was using I thought you had to get a spiritual life and I tried I went to workshops and paid lots for it, learnt many different ways to meditate .... then went home and got blasted.
I understand now that I alwasy had a spritual connection it was sick as well and is getting better and stronger one day at a time.
Such joy (yes I already said that).
All this time I have been supported and loved and now I can love and support myself and others.
Kevin
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Join Date: Nov 2005
Location: my room in ct.
Posts: 58,110
good for you kevbro!
kev yep, it cant be bought, or taught...
it comes from within as we have come to see...
your a good man kev...
love from the other side of the globe!
pat
kev
When I was using I thought you had to get a spiritual life and I tried I went to workshops and paid lots for it, learnt many different ways to meditate .... then went home and got blasted.
it comes from within as we have come to see...
your a good man kev...
love from the other side of the globe!
pat
everything is already ok
Thread Starter
Join Date: May 2005
Location: Melbourne Victoria Australia
Posts: 19,793
thanks ((((gt))))
I can go to this years na convention which focuses on the newcomer and actually be present and aware of what is going on around me as I am more in tune with myself and my hp so I can be there for otehrs in a very real way.
I get this life of a daily reprieve by doing the things we do here at SR and by takng my recovery and working it in my life every day as best I can.
If your new or struggling and have doubts about your ability to do this, to get clean then here this, I was at deaths door for many years and was shunned and I hated myself through and through.
The miracle of my recovery is in every day I don't use, every day I don't abuse myself and otehrs, every day I put others in danger, every day that I work the na prgram and connect with my higher power.
I love and am loved the fear has gone, I never feel alone am fit and quite healthy I skip and laugh a lot.
Its right here if you want it. I want it and am willing to remain teachable for the rest of my life one day at a time.
I never understood the word freedom until recently, how good it feels tastes and smells.
Enough from me. Anyway I have tears of joy flowing down my face so better stop before I fuse the keyboard
Love Kevin
I can go to this years na convention which focuses on the newcomer and actually be present and aware of what is going on around me as I am more in tune with myself and my hp so I can be there for otehrs in a very real way.
I get this life of a daily reprieve by doing the things we do here at SR and by takng my recovery and working it in my life every day as best I can.
If your new or struggling and have doubts about your ability to do this, to get clean then here this, I was at deaths door for many years and was shunned and I hated myself through and through.
The miracle of my recovery is in every day I don't use, every day I don't abuse myself and otehrs, every day I put others in danger, every day that I work the na prgram and connect with my higher power.
I love and am loved the fear has gone, I never feel alone am fit and quite healthy I skip and laugh a lot.
Its right here if you want it. I want it and am willing to remain teachable for the rest of my life one day at a time.
I never understood the word freedom until recently, how good it feels tastes and smells.
Enough from me. Anyway I have tears of joy flowing down my face so better stop before I fuse the keyboard
Love Kevin
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Join Date: Feb 2008
Location: 49 degrees north
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Originally Posted by nogard 
thanks ((((gt))))
I can go to this years na convention which focuses on the newcomer and actually be present and aware of what is going on around me as I am more in tune with myself and my hp so I can be there for otehrs in a very real way.
I get this life of a daily reprieve by doing the things we do here at SR and by takng my recovery and working it in my life every day as best I can.
If your new or struggling and have doubts about your ability to do this, to get clean then here this, I was at deaths door for many years and was shunned and I hated myself through and through.
The miracle of my recovery is in every day I don't use, every day I don't abuse myself and otehrs, every day I put others in danger, every day that I work the na prgram and connect with my higher power.
I love and am loved the fear has gone, I never feel alone am fit and quite healthy I skip and laugh a lot.
Its right here if you want it. I want it and am willing to remain teachable for the rest of my life one day at a time.
I never understood the word freedom until recently, how good it feels tastes and smells.
Enough from me. Anyway I have tears of joy flowing down my face so better stop before I fuse the keyboard
Love Kevin
I can go to this years na convention which focuses on the newcomer and actually be present and aware of what is going on around me as I am more in tune with myself and my hp so I can be there for otehrs in a very real way.
I get this life of a daily reprieve by doing the things we do here at SR and by takng my recovery and working it in my life every day as best I can.
If your new or struggling and have doubts about your ability to do this, to get clean then here this, I was at deaths door for many years and was shunned and I hated myself through and through.
The miracle of my recovery is in every day I don't use, every day I don't abuse myself and otehrs, every day I put others in danger, every day that I work the na prgram and connect with my higher power.
I love and am loved the fear has gone, I never feel alone am fit and quite healthy I skip and laugh a lot.
Its right here if you want it. I want it and am willing to remain teachable for the rest of my life one day at a time.
I never understood the word freedom until recently, how good it feels tastes and smells.
Enough from me. Anyway I have tears of joy flowing down my face so better stop before I fuse the keyboard
Love Kevin
Sorry I quoted your whole post, but it deserves to be read again. God, I hope SpaceDementia reads it. This is what it is all about. And proof of the rewards of a mind and spirit applied congruently. Anyone who wonders whether the tears of pain and sorrow are worth it need only read the above.
You made my day, my man. Thank You
warrens
everything is already ok
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Join Date: May 2005
Location: Melbourne Victoria Australia
Posts: 19,793
Thanks warrens, good to meet you and you help me by being in recovery and being here.
Kevin
"... without parallel, one addict helping another..."
Kevin
"... without parallel, one addict helping another..."
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Join Date: Feb 2008
Location: Louisville
Posts: 138
nogard, tears of joy are wonderful and I'm happy that the steps worked for you and that you stuck with them. Realize how awesome it is to be where you are. To be able to honestly say that your clean is an amazing feeling when you reflect on the times you might have lied about it(I lied about it constantly) Your post is giving me tears of sadness since I can't even remember the last time I cried in joy. Good luck my man.
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