Fizzbin

Hello all,
*sigh* well I am currently going through a divorce of my wife of 10+ years with out 2 daughters (2 and 5). For the last 5-6 years I have been drinking on the weekends. not really thinking that it was doing any damage. but when my wife said she wanted a divorce back in jan 07, I tried to change my ways without changing my drinking.

well, i went the summer parting it up, lying to myself (oh boy did i lie) that I would change.. and nothing did. It took my wife and my counselor to finally convience me to move out of my house.

Once out of my house things began to unfold and I the shroud of alcholol was lifted and then I saw truly what has become of my life and my kids.

I have been going to AA meetings on and off, I have had to get a 2nd job to be able to afford my regular house and my apt. and the pressures of financials are starting to kill me. I dont eat much, I dont drink because I wont. i have no money...

I feel like I am just unloading here so I will hold it..just saying hi.

Fizz

Anna

Hi Fizz,
Welcome, and I'm glad you found us.

Sometimes it takes going through a lot to get us to recognize that alcohol is ruining our lives in every way.

Have you considered stopping drinking?

Astro

You've picked a great place to vent and unload, many of us have had similar experiences.

I hope you continue to attend AA meetings. Welcome to SR, glad you're here!

CarolD

Welcome to SR!

I am so sorry you are having difficulties
early sobriety is hard even without your particular situation.

One of the best things about AA is it is free
and gives one a sense of purpose and hope.
Please continue to go and begin Step work.

Blessings to the 4 of you

Fizzbin

Sorry anna i guess i should of put that in there, I stopped drinking on Oct. 13th of 2007 and I have not had a drink since.

It is one of the hardest things I have ever done is put down the drink and stand up and face my lies. I would not wish it upon anyone because it really makes you realize how ungrateful you have been and how harsh the world can be.

it was told to me at a AA meeting 'its easy to stop drinking... "JUST DONT DRINK STUPID" its the spagetti mess that left over that is the hard part to deal with.

It might not be for others but for me this rings true like sunday church bells.

Fizz

NOMOMERLOTMAMMA

HI and welcome,

My life got easier to deal with when I started working the Steps. It'll get better..promise.

Karen

29a

Unfortunately life is always easy in sobriety. I've went through some pretty tough times. And now I have all these feelings and emotions, while before I was apethetic and numb. Each time I've gotten stronger, and each time has brought me closer to god and made me realize one important thing....no matter what happens, I don't have to drink.
For me going to AA meetings on and off would not cut it. I had to get involved, I had to get a sponsor, and I had to work the steps. Then the obsession was lifted. And even when life is rough, I still have peace. hope this helps

SF69

Fizzbin, welcome and well done with your months of sobriety.

Hang in there!

wjw1970

Hi Fizzbin!

Welcome to SR from another newbie. My recovery process has just started, and this site has been so helpful, hopeful and strengthing for me personally.

Stick around, so many great people here!

parentrecovers

nice to meet you, fizz. keep posting! hugs and support, k

Rowan

Hi Fizz,

Welcome

I, too, hope that you continue to attend meetings, that you get a sponsor and begin Step work if you haven't already. I understand that you have difficulties right now and I am sorry for that. Just remember, it's nothing that drinking will ever make better. Just hang in there, and have faith that things will improve as they are meant to.
In the meantime, I hope you continue to read and post here.