pity party
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Join Date: Jul 2005
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pity party
hello folks,
12 days of sobriety, listening to all of the suggestions, calling my sponsor and other AA's tonite, and I still feel like crap now. I almost entertained the thought that I could have still drank, but i was not going to. I was thinking,
If I could have cut back on my drinking I would have not lost the house, the job, and would not currently be in out-patient rehab. I know I am just feeling sorry for myself and things will get better for me, however, I just feel like such a loser and upset about what has transpired. I cannot seem to get over this. I was doing great mentally these last few days too. ranting again..
12 days of sobriety, listening to all of the suggestions, calling my sponsor and other AA's tonite, and I still feel like crap now. I almost entertained the thought that I could have still drank, but i was not going to. I was thinking,
If I could have cut back on my drinking I would have not lost the house, the job, and would not currently be in out-patient rehab. I know I am just feeling sorry for myself and things will get better for me, however, I just feel like such a loser and upset about what has transpired. I cannot seem to get over this. I was doing great mentally these last few days too. ranting again..
where the light is
Join Date: Dec 2007
Location: Ontario, Canada
Posts: 2,763
Hi PG1968,
Just offering my support. For me, dealing with the past and forgiving myself is all part of it. As much as I wish I could, I can't change the past. I have to keep moving forward.
It gets better.
Just offering my support. For me, dealing with the past and forgiving myself is all part of it. As much as I wish I could, I can't change the past. I have to keep moving forward.
It gets better.
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Hi PG,
Good for you getting through 12 days.
I had a really hard time for quite awhile in the early days too. There was so much regret and self-blame and anger. Just know that you will be able to deal with these emotions and move on.
Good for you getting through 12 days.
I had a really hard time for quite awhile in the early days too. There was so much regret and self-blame and anger. Just know that you will be able to deal with these emotions and move on.
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Join Date: Nov 2005
Location: Nursing Home in Brick, New Jersey
Posts: 5,174
Would, coulda, shoulda! Been there, done that! I just love that line from the movie "Moonstruck", when Cher slaps Nicholas Cage and says, "Snap out of it!" If I could only remember it when I, myself, am having a little pity party. Fortunately, they don't usually last long, and I just put one foot in front of the other (figuratively, since I'm in a wheelchair), and get on with it!
everything is already ok
Join Date: May 2005
Location: Melbourne Victoria Australia
Posts: 19,793
Yeah what Carol says is so true. Recovery first and keep practing Letting Go.
Are you doing what your sponsor Suggests?
Have you talked to your sponsor about the steps?
Kevin
Are you doing what your sponsor Suggests?
Have you talked to your sponsor about the steps?
Kevin
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