RK2007

Well since finding sobriety, which *ahem* will be 4 months in 5 days time I have noticed a few things about myself - both positive and negative...

I'll start with the positive things:-

I am enjoying eating a much healthier diet now and taking regular excercise and more often...

My powers of concentration, whilst they have never been great are much better than they were before...

I have a more positive outlook and my energy levels are increased...

Now the negative things...

I started smoking sober, a thing I used to do only when drinking (not smoking sober, just smoking!!!)

And the final thing - these daydreams I have sometimes; I sometimes enter into these daydreams where one day it will be ok for me to drink and sometimes I see myself at a bar with friends having just one or two and then calling it a day...

reed

good job on the sobriety. I'm the same way with the smoking, used to only smoke at nite, now I'm a full time smoker. As far as the drinking daydreams go, I do that sometimes but daydreaming never realy hurt I guess. Keep up the good work.

barb dwyer

rk -

has it been that long already !?!?!?!?! zowie!

and eyp - it's abou ttime for that little 'fantasy to start slipping into the back rooms and rattling pots n' pans.

that's the disease ... waiting.

doing push ups in the back yard.

hangin' out ... waiting to see if you're paying attention.

tellin its' little lies.

tanyapmc

The great obsession of every man is that one day he will be able to drink like his fellows.

Know that is your disease talking to you. Tell it to SHUT UP! LOL

congrats on your sobriety. thats great

tay-lyn

Well said Tanya.

Hey Rob; Wow, 4 months is like a lifetime to me.....great work!
What Tanya said is so true for me. I have such an obsession about drinking.
I re-read my blogs, which hit me over the head with the FACT that I am an alcoholic, and yet, immediately after reading them, I'll 'consider' drinking again.
So I too tell myself 'off'.
I look at my disease as a little monster living inside of me who is just lurking, waiting to bring me down. I think of him as his only mission is to destroy me by making me drink again. So when I get those thoughts.....from the little monster....I firmly tell him to 'F off'! I have to treat it like a separate entity.
So I can relate. Hope you're doing well today.
Happy Valentines Day to you and all!
Tay.

parentrecovers

hugs and support to ya, rk

stone

I got to 6 months and didnt even realise I had kinda set that as a goal to myself. When I hit that goal IT just reared its head at me, I drank. It gets easier as time goes on and then it gets more subtly HARD.
Congrats on your sober time!

1963comet

Great job on your sober time.

Those day dreams are just thoughts. You can try to redirect your thinking. I do not intertain them kind of thoughts.

Thought this might help

RK2007

Thank you everybody for your replies, every reply is a bit out of somebody's day and I really appreciate that!!!