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Hello
Hello,
I am posting for the first time. Not sure really what to say. I was in recovery from march until november. I picked up my first drink for the second time then. I have no one to blame but myself. I want to quit but I have done so much damage to the ones who love me that the pain, and guilt of it all gets to be too much. Maybe I'll ramble on later because I am not sure I am doing this correctly.
I am posting for the first time. Not sure really what to say. I was in recovery from march until november. I picked up my first drink for the second time then. I have no one to blame but myself. I want to quit but I have done so much damage to the ones who love me that the pain, and guilt of it all gets to be too much. Maybe I'll ramble on later because I am not sure I am doing this correctly.
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Hey HighVolt- I know where you are..I know what you're feeling. I have the same anguish and grief...the remorse,regret....the unbelievable quality of what we did...you are not alone. I'm more than willing to talk about my ec\xperiences over the last 30 odd days if you'd like...welcome.
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Hi and Welcome,
Shame and guilt are such a huge part of addiction, and for me, it was really a stumbling block to my sobriety. It was too much to deal with and again and again, I would return to drinking. Finally, I knew I had to just deal with the pain and get through it. You can get through this and come to terms with yourself. I hope you keep reading and posting.
Shame and guilt are such a huge part of addiction, and for me, it was really a stumbling block to my sobriety. It was too much to deal with and again and again, I would return to drinking. Finally, I knew I had to just deal with the pain and get through it. You can get through this and come to terms with yourself. I hope you keep reading and posting.
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Join Date: Feb 2008
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I tried to quit on my own. I went to AA for a month then stopped going, not feeling as though I was cured but that I could do this on my own. The aftermath of my drinking still haunts me today. My family does not know I have started again but I know they are suspicious. Probably a little denial on their part.
By the way...thanks for the welcome
By the way...thanks for the welcome
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