My Mark

I tried...I only made about 3 Hours.

I attended 1 online meeting...I actually talked to someone helpful...

but here I am!!!...SCREWWWWWWWWWED!

That headache came and went...I took the last tylenol (not NSAID) in the house, and it just hurt too bad..It didn't help...

There was great advice, but I fixed the headache....I am just SURE...I did not fix life....

One, wasn't it....Two made the headache go away...but...I am on TOOO many now...Honestly...I wish I could puke....but I don't...I stay with the misery in my tummy....

Thanks for listening to a drunk....

barb dwyer

Did you fail, or did you learn something important?

Looks to me more like you just learned ... you can't do this alone.

It's either one or the other.
That part is none of my business.
That part is up to you, hon.

The monster of alcoholism is larger than the internet.
The monster of alcoholism is not going to let us 'dabble' at recovery. It's not a hobby. We're in this for our very lives.

I fully believe that the internet is a powerful tool in helping those who are house bound, or in isolated areas or cities find comfort in online fellowship -
maybe those who 'have problems other than alcohol' and simply mentally cannot "capacitate" enough to make their first initial motions for recovery in the 3-D world ....

I truly, honestly believe ...

that the Design of The Infinite ...
is for the alcoholic to meet face to face with other alcoholics.
The alcoholic must ... must come to others for help.

I truly believe that.

Not saying *you* have to ...

so what is your plan now?

barb dwyer

In other words - the way to make a failure a success - learn from it.

The way to make a mistake cease to be a mistake - learn from it.

S'all I was tryin to say.

CarolD

Many of us had false starts on our way to solid recovery.
For now...
drink a lot of water and try to rest.

Tomorrow find a face tto face AA meeting.
That's where I learned how to live sober
and enjoy my new life.

You too can find a better healthy future.

Negative Man

It's okay My Mark. I was on here a number of weeks before I was able to quit. Just keep coming back and keep posting. You found strength to try. More strength is there. Start rowing, and a boat will appear.

tay-lyn

You didn't fail My Mark. You're here aren't you? That means you're trying. So you're not failing. You're moving forward. Reaching out for help. Keep trying and you'll find your way eventually. Stick around here, there are lots of good people to help you out.
Hugs.

29a

You havent' failed, you've just found another way that doesn't work.

Sober recovery and other online resources are great additions to my recovery. but that's all it is.

For me, I need regular contact with other alcoholics. I need the accountability that comes from being part of a group. I need someone who can tell me when I'm messing up. I need people to help and I need guidance.

Maybe AA's not for you and maybe it is, have you ever given it a try?

Don't be to hard on yourself, and keep trying.

tay-lyn

That's cool. That is how I feel.

Dee74

SR does work - on its own - for some.
It does for me.

But many many people - most people - find benefit in face to face interaction - like Barb and 29a and others have said.

worth a go
D

My Mark

Sheesh...

My memory of the order of events was SOO messed up today, I had to come here and see if I posted first, or called a dear one.

I have a girlfriend on her way today, she is one I mentioned before, 20yrs sober, VERY active in AA...

She listened last night to my drunk babblings, and remembers me BEFORE this thing got a hold on me...

I do feel like such an idiot...she warned me, over and over...to quit while I was ahead.

Well, here I am, finally, I hope, going to get the help I need, a friend to point me in the right direction...

Thanks to everyone here too!

Anna

Hi My Mark,

As others have said, use this as a learning experience and move forward.

Bottom line is, withdrawls are going to be miserable. But, they are inevitable. Have you talked to your dr? You can try drinking lots of juice, water, gatorade or anything like that and getting some rest. You can get through the pain of the withdrawls and begin to feel good again.

nodrinkingzone

What he said