aztchr

On a sad note, I found out a former student of mine tried to take his life.
He had been known to use but it wasn't an overdose. I won't go into the details, but he's on life support and there's only slight brain activity. He was deprived of oxygen for awhile. He definitely was a troubled teen when I had him in class, but he shared a lot and had such creative talents.

Then I found out my sister is back out of the house again. She was starting to make some better choices. Got a counselor and was on medication. She has my parents car again. Dad let her use it to go to her counseling appt. and she hasn't returned. She stole money from my dad and has pawned a couple things again. No word from her for a few days now, people have been calling my parents looking for her. My niece keeps saying I miss Mommy and then gets angry. She's starting to act out at pre-school and talk about her mom more.

My dad had an already planned trip to take, so my mom was watching my niece for the past couple of days. I went over to give her a break and entertain my niece. I still get angry and sad at the whole situation, so I'm back to step 1 this week. My dad is back in town now, sister is still gone.

Hopefully, my meeting tomorrow will help me refocus.
Emotionally I'm just drained.

caileesnana

addiction sucks for all involved.
:praying
susan

Spiritual Seeker

(((((((((((((((((((((aztchr))))))))))))))))))))
Other's struggles pull at our heart strings. The choices they make are truly sad.
Wishing you some sunshine in your day.

aztchr

I'm finding it's best to just feel all the emotions and then take a deep breath!
My choices affect my peace. I can only stay in the dark for awhile.
Thanks for the support! The good still outweighs the bad.

BayAreaPhoenix

((((hugs)))) and prayers for you. I'm glad you can only stay dark for a while. We have to feel the feelings, but it's hard none-the-less! Take care of yourself.

bookmiser

((((((((aztchr)))))))))

I'm so sorry to hear about your former student. What a tragedy.
My prayers go out to him and his family at this time.
I'm also real sorry to hear that your sister's out there again.
I know it's a shock for you and your parents. Just when
we think they have their addiction under control and are taking the
steps toward recovery in all sincerity, they relapse.
I pray she finds her way again and gets back on a good path.
As far as her child goes...
It's so damaging for the young children of addicts/alcoholics.
Both my children were repeatedly let down by their dad while
growing up. He was an alcoholic and his so called commitments,
always went to the back burner.
Sending out prayers for you, your parents, your sister, and special
prayers for your little niece. The children suffer so. I know this
for a fact. Your recovery is shining, btw.
Stay strong.
Hugs,
Linda

Impurrfect

((((aztchr)))


Sending you hugs and prayers. Sorry you've had such a rough week.

Amy

greeteachday

I know you are going through some sad times...I hate what addiction does to families...But I see your recovery shining brightly here.
I am fortunate that my nature is such that I can not stay in the darkness...even before recovery I tended to see the half full version pretty quickly. Now with my program skills I can acknowledge the feelings and move from that darkness to light. It does help so much in eliminating the victim role. Good for you that you can seek support, find a meeting, share your pain and move forward! You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. :ghug

mooselips

aztchr,
Sorry to hear about your rough week.
It's so sad to hear about your former student, sure wish a miracle could occur and he would be okay.

As for your sister, I hope she comes home soon, so sad for your niece. Addiction stinks.


Hugs to you, and your family.
Take care of you...

CatsPajamas

(((aztchr)))

That IS a rough week. I hope the weekend gives you some peace and smiles. I remember awhile ago Ann was talking about her son who is still out there... and she said she came to a realization. She said "If he was in hell, and I went into hell after him, who would be left to hold the light?"

The best you can do is love and pray for all involved... your niece, your sister, your parents, even your students. Your recovery will touch each of those relationships in a powerful way. We can't always see it working in the here and now... but it always does.

Hugs
Cats

duet_4-8

I'm sorry you are going through this. Remember to take care of you, and treat yourself gently.

((((HUGS))))

aztchr

Thank you, all for the thoughts and prayers. It has helped tremendously. I didn't feel like it this morning, but I went to a meeting and the topic was acceptance. Just what I needed, of course.

I love the sharing from Ann about holding the light. When my sister's ready (again) the light will be there for her. Until then, I'm using it for my own recovery.