Bad Day Bad Thoughts
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Bad Day Bad Thoughts
I am at 51 days and today I had a really bad day at work. I had to discipline several people on my staff and though they deserved it the whole thing sucked the life out of me. I really wanted to give up on being sober. I thought that maybe I could drink tonight for relief and then stop over the weekend. I knew this was a stupid way to think. I went to an AA meeting and it was a Lead meeting and the lady that shared had such a bad childhood and had a much worse bottom than I ever had. So I left there thinking what would my story be. Thinking that over I only felt worse. Why does it have to be so hard to stay away from alcohol? I wish things were different. I resisted but it scares me how strong this urge to drink gets.
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
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It really does get easier Congratulations on your sober time.
I was the speaker at my home group tonight.
My share was 10% old times
90% how recovery has enhanced my life.
Sorry you were not in the room with us!
Have you done a Gratitude list recently?
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congrads and it does get better it is just a slow ride, I know it sounds lame but it is a motto that has worked for me often, what doesnt kill us only makes us stronger...it is true good luck and keep posting!
As for the work thing it just shows that your human, but try leaving work at work I know it is hard but it can be done......LOL
I used to own resturants and still good friends with many x employees
congrads and it does get better it is just a slow ride, I know it sounds lame but it is a motto that has worked for me often, what doesnt kill us only makes us stronger...it is true good luck and keep posting!
As for the work thing it just shows that your human, but try leaving work at work I know it is hard but it can be done......LOL
I used to own resturants and still good friends with many x employees
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Sweet...
You might find that while listing the things you are grateful for....you will actually begin
to feel gratitude..
Give it a chance anyhow...
I really like what Katz had to share with you here..
"congrads and it does get better it is just a slow ride"
I sure have found this to be true...we did not get sick overnight...we do not get well
overnight. Please continue with your meetings.
Prayers.
IO
You might find that while listing the things you are grateful for....you will actually begin
to feel gratitude..
Give it a chance anyhow...
I really like what Katz had to share with you here..
"congrads and it does get better it is just a slow ride"
I sure have found this to be true...we did not get sick overnight...we do not get well
overnight. Please continue with your meetings.
Prayers.
IO
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It's funny you say leave it at work
How many times I told staff to leave problems at home and focus on work. That reverse thinking makes sense to me. Thank you for that. I am still weak in the area of keeping my internal anxiety under control. On the outside people say I am so calm under pressure when I get alone it all takes its toll.
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Congratulations on the 51 days!
I'm sorry you are having a rough one. I can relate to the power of what you are feeling. However, I have tried the drink tonight--recover this weekend--back to day one . . . thing. It's never just tonight! But you know this.
I hope the gratitude list helps, and please don't pickup tonight.
Wishing you strength and peace
I'm sorry you are having a rough one. I can relate to the power of what you are feeling. However, I have tried the drink tonight--recover this weekend--back to day one . . . thing. It's never just tonight! But you know this.
I hope the gratitude list helps, and please don't pickup tonight.
Wishing you strength and peace
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well... i lived with a phyco for the past ten years.
The last five have been narly.
The last 3 ..was freanken hell
Thou...i can't decipline a grown up woman that really, really deserve it.
I did manage to get drunk 3 years ago..well that wasn't an answer
I needed. it's been hell it surely has been for the past 3 years.
I actaully got sober , survived my own alcholism only to let it
wreack by another alki.
I'm not planing on drinking today thou.
sweets...that's my pick up line:rof
The last five have been narly.
The last 3 ..was freanken hell
Thou...i can't decipline a grown up woman that really, really deserve it.
I did manage to get drunk 3 years ago..well that wasn't an answer
I needed. it's been hell it surely has been for the past 3 years.
I actaully got sober , survived my own alcholism only to let it
wreack by another alki.
I'm not planing on drinking today thou.
sweets...that's my pick up line:rof
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Thank you all
Today was a good day. After I read all your words of support I thought the best thing to do was to go to sleep. I went to bed two hours earlier that normal and had a better attitude this morning. I decided to join the YMCA and worked out for the first time in I don't know how long. It wore me out and I feel very relaxed tonight. I'm glad I didn't screw up the progress I have made because I would have really regretted that. Again, thank you for the words of support. I'm headed to another meeting tonight. 
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