I am New Here...I need support
LittleGirlLost
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I am New Here...I need support
Hello,
I am Mary. I am a 40 year old pill addict.
I was hoping a support forum could help me stay strong
while I attempt once again to kick this horrible habit.
My story starts from when I was 20 years old it was an innocent start to an addiction. I had an abscessed tooth that needed prompt treatment. I went to see a dentist that asked me if I was in pain. I told him yes. He wondered why I didn't complain of pain while the nerve in my tooth was being eaten by infection. I agreed that I was in pain and when I left the office I had a script for 30 10/350 Norcos with a refill. At first I didn't like the pills they made me tired. So I called the dentist and complained he said to give a little more time and that I would be okay. So I did, low and behold I started liking them. From then on I was an addict. Doing everything to get them. It is 20 years later and I am still an addict. Although I have had several other addictions in the duration of this time. I hate taking drugs! I want to quit and I want to be the person I used to be. I know I will be 20 years older, but you get the point. Right now I can't function without taking a pill. I have to take several pills to even start my day. If I don't have them I am miserable in every way. I take about 30 pills a day. It's a Miracle that I am not dead. I was thinking I need to wait till after the holidays to quit because I really don't want to spoil Christmas for my kids. I guess I need to vent and do so among others that can see where I am coming from. I am here to read and learn also to gain support. Thank You for Being here!
Mary
I am Mary. I am a 40 year old pill addict.
I was hoping a support forum could help me stay strong
while I attempt once again to kick this horrible habit.
My story starts from when I was 20 years old it was an innocent start to an addiction. I had an abscessed tooth that needed prompt treatment. I went to see a dentist that asked me if I was in pain. I told him yes. He wondered why I didn't complain of pain while the nerve in my tooth was being eaten by infection. I agreed that I was in pain and when I left the office I had a script for 30 10/350 Norcos with a refill. At first I didn't like the pills they made me tired. So I called the dentist and complained he said to give a little more time and that I would be okay. So I did, low and behold I started liking them. From then on I was an addict. Doing everything to get them. It is 20 years later and I am still an addict. Although I have had several other addictions in the duration of this time. I hate taking drugs! I want to quit and I want to be the person I used to be. I know I will be 20 years older, but you get the point. Right now I can't function without taking a pill. I have to take several pills to even start my day. If I don't have them I am miserable in every way. I take about 30 pills a day. It's a Miracle that I am not dead. I was thinking I need to wait till after the holidays to quit because I really don't want to spoil Christmas for my kids. I guess I need to vent and do so among others that can see where I am coming from. I am here to read and learn also to gain support. Thank You for Being here!
Mary
Welcome to SR Mary, this is a great place and I am glad you found us.
Check out the Substance abuse section - and keep posting, venting, asking for help.
I am a 6 month sober alcoholic, and this place played a huge part in that, so I can recommend it.
Check out the Substance abuse section - and keep posting, venting, asking for help.
I am a 6 month sober alcoholic, and this place played a huge part in that, so I can recommend it.
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Mary the first step is admitting you have a problem and you have done that so you are moving in the right direction! Bravo!
Welcome to SR! The Substance abuse forum will provide you a lot of information and help...You are not alone please do not forget that-and you have found the right place! There are a lot of people hear that will shed advice for you-Glad to have you and keep up the awareness and the willingness to want to quit your doing good!
Welcome to SR! The Substance abuse forum will provide you a lot of information and help...You are not alone please do not forget that-and you have found the right place! There are a lot of people hear that will shed advice for you-Glad to have you and keep up the awareness and the willingness to want to quit your doing good!
Hello Mary,
I am an alcoholic so not to sure about in the ins and outs of pill addiction but wanted to say Hello.
I am sure you will find lots of usefull information here, and someone who knows more than I do will be along with some good advice shortly I am sure
Sax
I am an alcoholic so not to sure about in the ins and outs of pill addiction but wanted to say Hello.
I am sure you will find lots of usefull information here, and someone who knows more than I do will be along with some good advice shortly I am sure
Sax
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Lots of Support Here
Welcome Mary- My name is Rob. You can scroll back through my recent posts and see where I've been recently....the highlight is probably jumping off an ER table in the throes of a benzo/alcohol psychosis and running off screaming into the night...but seriously...you are not alone. I am only on day 3 of not using....I too have experience with chemical addiction...PLEASE...do not try to detox on your own...you need professional help. I know the implications and fears wrapped up with that...I experienced them as well....but its hard to be a good mom from a hole in the ground....I almost died...you might. I have young kids too
Welcome to SR Mary, I am a recovered alcoholic, but when I was in detox there were several ladies in there for pill addiction.
Going cold turkey from pills can be almost impossible mentally and can be very dangerous unless done with medical supervision.
Please see your doctor and tell you doctor the truth, trust me you will not be the first patient to have told them they are addicted to pills and need help getting off of them and you will not be the last.
Going cold turkey from pills can be almost impossible mentally and can be very dangerous unless done with medical supervision.
Please see your doctor and tell you doctor the truth, trust me you will not be the first patient to have told them they are addicted to pills and need help getting off of them and you will not be the last.
Welcome Mary, I'm only 2 months sober myself and this place has been great...
So glad that you found us here, you'll get lots of support and advice and make some friends too...
I agree don't try to detox on your own, get professional medical advice - this is the longest I've ever been sober in my life and although I was always scared to go to the docs, it has been the biggest weight off my mind and the biggest help since I went...
Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing...
So glad that you found us here, you'll get lots of support and advice and make some friends too...
I agree don't try to detox on your own, get professional medical advice - this is the longest I've ever been sober in my life and although I was always scared to go to the docs, it has been the biggest weight off my mind and the biggest help since I went...
Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing...
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Hi Mary ...
Boy have I ever BEEN there, DONE that. I feel your pain!
Welcome to SR, you've found a great place. I also invite you to join us down in Substance Abuse (that's where I mostly hang out), we got's LOTS of pill addicts, people toughing out detoxes down in our neck of the woods. You can just cut/paste your same intro post down there, and the junkies (mostly the recovering kind, like myself) will come out of the woodwork to share their experience strength and hope.
Not saying AT ALL to avoid the wonderful crew that hangs out here at NTR, these folks are great too.
Anyways, welcome again, keep posting, we'll figure out a way to help you through this tough time. LOTS of people have gotten clean with the help of this forum ... so stick around. There IS HOPE, I promise you
Boy have I ever BEEN there, DONE that. I feel your pain!
Welcome to SR, you've found a great place. I also invite you to join us down in Substance Abuse (that's where I mostly hang out), we got's LOTS of pill addicts, people toughing out detoxes down in our neck of the woods. You can just cut/paste your same intro post down there, and the junkies (mostly the recovering kind, like myself) will come out of the woodwork to share their experience strength and hope.
Not saying AT ALL to avoid the wonderful crew that hangs out here at NTR, these folks are great too.
Anyways, welcome again, keep posting, we'll figure out a way to help you through this tough time. LOTS of people have gotten clean with the help of this forum ... so stick around. There IS HOPE, I promise you
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Hi Mary!
Welcome! You'll find the people on here are really great and often have allot of good advice to share.
I'm a recovering benzo addict and a recovering alcoholic (today's Day 88 for me). I'm also an active gambler. I'm generally an addict to anything.
I found that the only way I could quit benzos was cold turkey. It was horrible for about a week but then slowly things got better.
I don't know what meddications your on and giving medical advice isn't allowed here, so maybe it's best to talk with your doctor and see wether he reccomends you quit cold turkey or gradually.
Let us know how you get on. Good luck!
Welcome! You'll find the people on here are really great and often have allot of good advice to share.
I'm a recovering benzo addict and a recovering alcoholic (today's Day 88 for me). I'm also an active gambler. I'm generally an addict to anything.
I found that the only way I could quit benzos was cold turkey. It was horrible for about a week but then slowly things got better.
I don't know what meddications your on and giving medical advice isn't allowed here, so maybe it's best to talk with your doctor and see wether he reccomends you quit cold turkey or gradually.
Let us know how you get on. Good luck!
Hi and Welcome!
I am a recoverying pill addict. Clean and sober 11 months. And I used EVERY day for 15 years. I am glad your here. Please talk to a dr about detox. Just be honest with the dr. They will help you out.
I find that going to meetings helps me a whole lot. It is great not to feel so alone.
You CAN do this.
PM me anytime.
I am glad your here. Please keep posting.
I am a recoverying pill addict. Clean and sober 11 months. And I used EVERY day for 15 years. I am glad your here. Please talk to a dr about detox. Just be honest with the dr. They will help you out.
I find that going to meetings helps me a whole lot. It is great not to feel so alone.
You CAN do this.
PM me anytime.
I am glad your here. Please keep posting.
Hi Mary - Welcome to SR! I am so glad you are here - this place will bring you a feeling of hope - believe me! I dont' have direct experience with pills, but I know a lot of other people here have and will give you info. on that. Again, welcome. Jomey
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By the way, just to give ya an idea of how much of a pill junkie *I* actually was, even though I haven't seen a bottle of norco in probably 2 years, I can tell you off the top of my head that if you went and looked closely, you'd see that those are actually 10/325's, not 10/350's.
When I tell you I was obsessed with pain pills at one point, that is no joke. I could've (and actually did once or twice) taken the amount of dope you take in a day (300mg/hydrocodone) ... all at once! That's how bad I was, and how bad it can get if you don't do something about it.
And now, through participating in this forum and attending AA/NA meetings regularly, I have over 6 months completely clean of any mind altering drugs. It can be done, and YOU CAN do it too ... if you really want to ... I PROMISE
And by the way, just for the record, quitting BENZO'S cold turkey is just about the most DANGEROUS withdrawal a person could ever be put through. I highly advise ANYone hooked on benzo's to NOT follow Aldo's example. Opiates are another matter. By all means, if you can, speak with a doctor about it, don't take my word for it, but the research I'VE read about says that the risk of death or serious complications due to detox from opiates is so rare statistically-speaking that it's barely worth mentioning. But benzo withdrawal is a WHOLE other story when it comes to 'danger level'.
When I tell you I was obsessed with pain pills at one point, that is no joke. I could've (and actually did once or twice) taken the amount of dope you take in a day (300mg/hydrocodone) ... all at once! That's how bad I was, and how bad it can get if you don't do something about it.
And now, through participating in this forum and attending AA/NA meetings regularly, I have over 6 months completely clean of any mind altering drugs. It can be done, and YOU CAN do it too ... if you really want to ... I PROMISE
And by the way, just for the record, quitting BENZO'S cold turkey is just about the most DANGEROUS withdrawal a person could ever be put through. I highly advise ANYone hooked on benzo's to NOT follow Aldo's example. Opiates are another matter. By all means, if you can, speak with a doctor about it, don't take my word for it, but the research I'VE read about says that the risk of death or serious complications due to detox from opiates is so rare statistically-speaking that it's barely worth mentioning. But benzo withdrawal is a WHOLE other story when it comes to 'danger level'.
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Hello Mary;
I joined only minutes ago and when I looked at the posts, yours was the first one my eyes fell on.
Liquids have been my problem, rather than solids, but of course however we have been doing it, we have been getting hurt in similar ways.
For this opener, I'll just say "Hello" and tell you that I am wishing you the best from this moment onward.
Stay Strong.
Sincerely,
Robert
I joined only minutes ago and when I looked at the posts, yours was the first one my eyes fell on.
Liquids have been my problem, rather than solids, but of course however we have been doing it, we have been getting hurt in similar ways.
For this opener, I'll just say "Hello" and tell you that I am wishing you the best from this moment onward.
Stay Strong.
Sincerely,
Robert
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