The Insanity
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The Insanity
OK...I'm the guy who was brought to the ER 2 days ago in a benzo/alcoholic psychosis and literally ran screaming into the night....found wandering in the woods behind a bowling alley avoiding the K-9 units they sent out.....just found out my wife is staying a little late at work ( we're usually home together) and the first thing I thought...IN A FLASH...is how I could drink!!!!! Unbelievable....what the h*** is wrong with me....I'm barely alive now.
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Addiction is insanity Rob and it will take some time before you can see things with more perspective. Do something for yourself, if your wife is working late.
Stay focused on your recovery.
Stay focused on your recovery.
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hey rob, you gotta find a counselor and/or aa group in your area to lean on. work on finding a way to be able to pick the phone and ask for help, ok?
meanwhile, keep posting here. a lot of good listeners on sr.
hugs, k
meanwhile, keep posting here. a lot of good listeners on sr.
hugs, k
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Rob - Yes, thoughts can be very scary, I agree with you on that. If you feel like you may act on them, and drink, or use, get help now! Like K said, contact AA, etc.
If you are being frightened by your thoughts, which I completely understand and sympathize with, realize that you have spent a significant amount of time thinking about and planning your drinking. Your desire to quit and your recovery will not change those thought patterns over night. I recently read a great book about this type of obsessive thought and how to "reprogram" your thought patterns. I can't think of the title off hand, if you are interested, pm me and I will look for it.
Keep working - you can do this. Jomey
If you are being frightened by your thoughts, which I completely understand and sympathize with, realize that you have spent a significant amount of time thinking about and planning your drinking. Your desire to quit and your recovery will not change those thought patterns over night. I recently read a great book about this type of obsessive thought and how to "reprogram" your thought patterns. I can't think of the title off hand, if you are interested, pm me and I will look for it.
Keep working - you can do this. Jomey
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IN A FLASH...is how I could drink!!!!! Unbelievable....what the h*** is wrong with me....I'm barely alive now.
I checked back to some of your posts to find some mention of AA...the one I saw said you had been in and out of AA since 1983. Are you currently in or out? Maybe it's time to jump back in as though your life depended on it...sounds pretty much like it does!
BTW...does your local AA have a telephone hot-line? Ours does, and it's not uncommon to have people call who are trying desperately not to pick up...sometimes, all it takes is someone on the other end who knows what you're going through and can talk to you for a few minutes. Try it, please.
Have you called your doctor?not a greeter
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Originally Posted by Robzoloft 
the first thing I thought...IN A FLASH...is how I could drink!!!!!
Keep posting here... better yet find a meeting to go to (not sure if you're going to AA or not).
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