Anyone else on Day 1?
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Anyone else on Day 1?
I kept telling myself I had to have the option of alcohol for Christmas and New Year, then figured, well I'll just drink until then and straighten out New Years Day. Went through 1/5 of vodka in 2 days and said yipes! I'll be dead by then!
So here it is Sunday (I wish every day was Sunday 'cause the ABC stores are closed) and I'm sober at 8:16pm. I've gone sober for over 100 days before and ruined it. Why is it easy to remember how much we liked drinking and hard to remember how good we felt when we were clean for a while? I'm going to start a jounal again - that really helped last time.
Anyone else starting today? Or want to? I'm a secret drinker so don't have anyone I can get support from, but sure would appreciate it. Thanks!
So here it is Sunday (I wish every day was Sunday 'cause the ABC stores are closed) and I'm sober at 8:16pm. I've gone sober for over 100 days before and ruined it. Why is it easy to remember how much we liked drinking and hard to remember how good we felt when we were clean for a while? I'm going to start a jounal again - that really helped last time.
Anyone else starting today? Or want to? I'm a secret drinker so don't have anyone I can get support from, but sure would appreciate it. Thanks!
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I'm on Day 1 Again....
I went from "controlled" drinking to multiple pints of vodka every night in about 2 weeks....last night, in a blackout, I leapt off an ER room table ( friends -had taken me to a hospital) and rean screaming into the night...I was found 5 miles away in a bowling alley....drove drunk all the time...mixed it with pills ...you name it......hurt everyone I love......shame fear regret remorse guilt crying pain detox.....yeah, I'm back at Day 1...and I know better
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Hi Crayola,
I was a secret drinker too. What helped me a lot, was to change my daily routines. Being home alone was a huge trigger for me, so I had to deal with that. Keep reading and posting.
I was a secret drinker too. What helped me a lot, was to change my daily routines. Being home alone was a huge trigger for me, so I had to deal with that. Keep reading and posting.
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Yep!
Yeah, Rob I know that feeling of "I know better" - you think we'd remember, wouldn't you! Congratulations on your Day 1! Thanks everyone for posting - right now I don't have any support ideas yet beyond SR, but need to come up with something. I'm not very social and get the willies at the thought of an AA meeting - with my luck I'd run into someone I knew and have it get back to my family. (No kidding on the luck - I have great luck in other ways but I could go to a gettogether five counties away and someone I know would be there - it's happened before). SR was a big help for me when I went 100 days - I couldn't have done it without the folks here. The journaling helped too - I jot down memories of the things I tend to forget later when I'm trying to convince myself to drink so I can go back and read "remember the time you did THAT???" 
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I'm back on day one...
i made it for six days, but yesterday, after a stressful afternoon, I drank. I didn't buy any wine, but I mentioned to my husband that I wished I had some, and he had some in the house and gave it to me. I'm not implying that it's his fault that I drank. It's entirely my own. I've been reading the posts related to whether it's possible for people who have problems to control thier drinking. I certainly wish it was possible for me....
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crayola the built in forgeters!
its alcoholism, not alcoholwasm!
wishing you all the best crayola!
stay clean and learn to be sober...
and help to color this world!
rz
Why is it easy to remember how much we liked drinking and hard to remember how good we felt when we were clean for a while?
its alcoholism, not alcoholwasm!
wishing you all the best crayola!
stay clean and learn to be sober...
and help to color this world!
rz
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Trite though it may sound to one struggling to get off the booze, every day is Day 1 for me...even after 28 years of continuous sobriety. I can't afford for it not to be. There's a saying in AA, "The farther I am from my last drink, the closer I am to my next." In other words, if I forget to remember how bad it was, and why I quit, I'm apt to try again.
You said it yourself:
You said it yourself:
Why is it easy to remember how much we liked drinking and hard to remember how good we felt when we were clean for a while?
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Hi All,
This is day one for me as well. After approximately 13 months of sobriety and (later) attempted controlled drinking, completely out of control drinking this past weekend. Been spending today dealing with the aftershocks (rather than avoiding them which I did in the past).
While this is my first post (on any forum of any kind), I have been reading the forums for 2-3 years - very helpful and very inspirational. I really want to deal with this serious problem and I am doing a couple of things different this time: Called the local AA number, spoke to a couple of AA members and went out for coffee with one. And I joined this forum!
Best wishes to everyone and I hope to be a regular contributor.
Thanks.
This is day one for me as well. After approximately 13 months of sobriety and (later) attempted controlled drinking, completely out of control drinking this past weekend. Been spending today dealing with the aftershocks (rather than avoiding them which I did in the past).
While this is my first post (on any forum of any kind), I have been reading the forums for 2-3 years - very helpful and very inspirational. I really want to deal with this serious problem and I am doing a couple of things different this time: Called the local AA number, spoke to a couple of AA members and went out for coffee with one. And I joined this forum!
Best wishes to everyone and I hope to be a regular contributor.
Thanks.
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