Need4Change

I just wanted to say that no matter how many frosties I chug back (and no matter how often or how many) and go on about my bits of nonsense on this forum, I consider you ALL my MATES and I hope that all of you have a wonderful Holiday Season.

I am drunker than a skunk right now, I "celebrated" too much and ended up acting crazy and going on a wild tyraid this evening. Please don't let it happen to you.

Well, I guess it's time to feed my goat, goose, dog, myself, etc...

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Dee74

yeah this place is great N4C...not good hearing about your tirade tho. I hope you're ok.

I'll say it again, my friend - when you're ready to let go the maelstrom the insanity and the groundhog day of drinking, let us know, ok ?

D

Jomey

Worried for you, Need4, but glad that you are keeping close. Oh, and what D said, too. Love ya, Jomey

rloomer

prayers N4C

Anna

Prayers for you.

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Well, my stoma bag just exploded all over me, my desk, computer, big mac, fries, strawberry shake, etc. Yeah, great. I'm off to bed. I won't get mad and curse about it though because it is an evil puritan sin to get mad at things that make you mad. I'll just be happy and fake it I look like a wonderful, happy person and am socially acceptible to man/woman-kind because that's the way I'm supposed to be.

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Jomey

Honey, please go get a good night sleep and try day 1 again tomorrow. Sooner or later, it's gonna work out for you. You don't have to be fake here with us - we've been where you are and we know we are all only 1 drink/use away from being there again. We support you whenever you are ready to try again. Love ya, J

kelsh

Your stoma bag exploded all over you and your food...guess you have to clean that mess up before you go to bed...drunk or not huh???

My son has one of those...I change it in emergent cases when his caregiver isn't scheduled for a while...His has done that to me.

Hope you don't feel too tough tomorrow. I can remember my days after drinking and they weren't fun....I could drink a gallon of ice water and still be thirsty.

Hope you have a good sleep.

kelsh

Need4Change

I can't believe I posted that. Seriously, I did'nt think that got posted. So embarrassing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Pinkcuda

:sorry

gypsytears

Maybe re-read some of your posts in the morning Need4Change? I hope you get some rest tonight.

Jersey Nonny

We do say and do things while under the influence, don't we!?!

If you really believe your user name, maybe it's time you took it and recovery seriously...get off the doggoned alcoholic roller coaster, once and for all. No more frosty mugs of whatever!!! C'mon...you can do it!!!

Jomey

You aren't going to be happy when you read this thread in the morning, Need4, if you are already embarrassed about it now, but what can be different tomorrow to get you not to drink? Think about it and let me know in the morning. J

Rowan

Prayers continue for you, my friend. It's difficult watching you suffer this way.

tellus

I've said worse, N4C. I'd venture to guess that most of us have.

I'm still struggling too. Best wishes--we can do this.

Need4Change

Thank you all so very much. Last night I cursed, screamed, insulted, ordered about, threatened, spent lot of money I did'nt have, got mad and stubbed my toe so hard that I drove the nail back into the skin and lay there for over and hour moaning and wailing in pain while my friend (who I'd been lashing out at all evening) forgivingly asked me if there was any way he could help (ie; drive me to the ER, etc).

I woke up at 1:45AM this morning riddled with shame, guilt and in terrible pain. I felt like I had just gone through a lobotomy as I staggered around for a good hour (I'm still "out of it"). I don't even know what the heck I was talking about or meant when I was going on about exploding stoma bags last night because as I look around my computer, there is'nt any sign of a spill and everything is dry. Did I hallucinate that I spilled something?. Maybe I'm going mad in the head.

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caitlin666

need4change..

dont worry about shame and guilt...been there so many times..its fruitless

but please my friend, take control of this , start afresh and things Will get better.

thinking of you
cait:ghug3

Pilgrim

Hi Need - what's a stoma bag??

indigo

A stoma bag is for people who have non-functioning bowels, either through an operation or from abnormalities at birth Pilgrim.
N4C, please don't beat yourself up, it serves no purpose. Pick yourself up hold your head up and start over. It can be done (not easy I know) and you can do it. Sending positive vibes to you.

Jomey

Need4 - how's it going today? J