Hey Everyone, I'm hoping today is the first day of the rest of my life
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Hey Everyone, I'm hoping today is the first day of the rest of my life
Hi
I'm Cheryl..And I am an alcoholic and a pill popper..I am at the lowest point of my life. I new I had a borderline alcohol problem for a very long time now, but I was totally convinced that I could control it..Then last November I found out I was pregnant with a child from a man that cheated on his girlfriend with me. He never told her. Then after being pregnant for 7 months I found out my baby had a chromosome abnormality..He was still born on May 2nd..The babies father was no where to be seen. I was in the hospital for 3 days, with the hope that he would show up..He never did.
So after 1 week, I went back to work..Decided to dive back in..I'm in the miltary and had the opportunity to get on a career course which is 2 years long, but very demanding. I took on alot and thought I was doing fine..Of course though, the first thing I did was hit the bottle. Then I met a guy on course who was as big of a drunk as me. Perfect!!!! he had just got out of a relationship and was going through a hard time, misery loves company and misery loves the bottle. We became good friends, I opened up to him..He promised me everything I wanted while he was trying to get me, then reneged on it. then he came back , then he promised me the world and again reneged. But stupid me with my low self esteem gave it..Come to find out he was using me the whole time and sleeping with his exgirlfriend..Claiming he loves us both..Anyway, of course I hit the bottle hard, but we had a last big drunk before this happened as well as 4 grams of cocaine and some ecstacey.
I don't do alot of drugs but certainly will if they are there. I missed work the other day because I was smashed and stoned on sleeping pills..Last night I did the same thing, didnt eat in 3 days and showed up at his ex gf house..I punched him in the face after he told me he wished that I died in a car accident. He pushed me and so what did I do , all drunked up called the cops..and guess what the big lush stupid me, got arrested today for assault..Because I hit him first..I reached my breaking point. I lost my mind. I have to kick this drinking habit. I used drinking and pills to try to help numb the pain, it only made it worse and made me look like a complete idiot. I have no self-worth left at all..But one thing I have is hope. I want God to give me strength to do this. I am lonely and feel like everyday is a challenge. Have you all ever done stupid ridiculous embarrassing things?? Reading everyones stories helps..I just want to have people that really care about me..And I know I have to do alot of work too.. I am going against all of my morals and acting the opposite of who I am..
Thats my story, thank you for reading and God Bless
Cheryl
I'm Cheryl..And I am an alcoholic and a pill popper..I am at the lowest point of my life. I new I had a borderline alcohol problem for a very long time now, but I was totally convinced that I could control it..Then last November I found out I was pregnant with a child from a man that cheated on his girlfriend with me. He never told her. Then after being pregnant for 7 months I found out my baby had a chromosome abnormality..He was still born on May 2nd..The babies father was no where to be seen. I was in the hospital for 3 days, with the hope that he would show up..He never did.
So after 1 week, I went back to work..Decided to dive back in..I'm in the miltary and had the opportunity to get on a career course which is 2 years long, but very demanding. I took on alot and thought I was doing fine..Of course though, the first thing I did was hit the bottle. Then I met a guy on course who was as big of a drunk as me. Perfect!!!! he had just got out of a relationship and was going through a hard time, misery loves company and misery loves the bottle. We became good friends, I opened up to him..He promised me everything I wanted while he was trying to get me, then reneged on it. then he came back , then he promised me the world and again reneged. But stupid me with my low self esteem gave it..Come to find out he was using me the whole time and sleeping with his exgirlfriend..Claiming he loves us both..Anyway, of course I hit the bottle hard, but we had a last big drunk before this happened as well as 4 grams of cocaine and some ecstacey.
I don't do alot of drugs but certainly will if they are there. I missed work the other day because I was smashed and stoned on sleeping pills..Last night I did the same thing, didnt eat in 3 days and showed up at his ex gf house..I punched him in the face after he told me he wished that I died in a car accident. He pushed me and so what did I do , all drunked up called the cops..and guess what the big lush stupid me, got arrested today for assault..Because I hit him first..I reached my breaking point. I lost my mind. I have to kick this drinking habit. I used drinking and pills to try to help numb the pain, it only made it worse and made me look like a complete idiot. I have no self-worth left at all..But one thing I have is hope. I want God to give me strength to do this. I am lonely and feel like everyday is a challenge. Have you all ever done stupid ridiculous embarrassing things?? Reading everyones stories helps..I just want to have people that really care about me..And I know I have to do alot of work too.. I am going against all of my morals and acting the opposite of who I am..
Thats my story, thank you for reading and God Bless
Cheryl
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Hello Cheryl,
Welcome to SR. I'm so glad found this forum. There are so many great people who will offer you what is called ESH: Experience, Strength and Hope. In the meantime it's helpful to read as many posts as you can and also take a look at the sticky threads at the top of each forum page.
Keep coming back!
Welcome to SR. I'm so glad found this forum. There are so many great people who will offer you what is called ESH: Experience, Strength and Hope. In the meantime it's helpful to read as many posts as you can and also take a look at the sticky threads at the top of each forum page.
Keep coming back!
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Hi Cheryl,
Yes, I've done many things that I regret while I was drinking. What I have had to learn is, I can't change that. All I can do is to not drink and to move forward. And, I think many of us, me included, found that alcohol helped us to deal with things. For me, that period didn't last very long and I headed straight into the misery of alcoholism. You can stop drinking and change your life.
Yes, I've done many things that I regret while I was drinking. What I have had to learn is, I can't change that. All I can do is to not drink and to move forward. And, I think many of us, me included, found that alcohol helped us to deal with things. For me, that period didn't last very long and I headed straight into the misery of alcoholism. You can stop drinking and change your life.
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Hi Cheryl,
You have come to the right place and I`m not just saying that.
I used to do drugs years ago, ecstacy and god knows what else. It ended up me not being able to go out and socialise if I hadn`t taken something or anything.
Enough was enough back then and I was lucky enough to speak to a friend who was a drug counciler. I totally changed my life in lots of different ways and managed to get off them only to meet alcohol coming the other way. That is an even longer story but it all came to ahead on around the 7th last month..(see `Enough` around that date posted here). I haven`t had a drink since.
There is something about this place that helps you. Your not alone and everyone here is or has gone through the same. You can do this..Start a fresh and you can get your life back. Everyone deserves to be happy. Things will get better just keep posting and stick with it.
Regards :ghug3
You have come to the right place and I`m not just saying that.
I used to do drugs years ago, ecstacy and god knows what else. It ended up me not being able to go out and socialise if I hadn`t taken something or anything.
Enough was enough back then and I was lucky enough to speak to a friend who was a drug counciler. I totally changed my life in lots of different ways and managed to get off them only to meet alcohol coming the other way. That is an even longer story but it all came to ahead on around the 7th last month..(see `Enough` around that date posted here). I haven`t had a drink since.
There is something about this place that helps you. Your not alone and everyone here is or has gone through the same. You can do this..Start a fresh and you can get your life back. Everyone deserves to be happy. Things will get better just keep posting and stick with it.
Regards :ghug3
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Welcome...
we've all done stupid things while under the influence. that doesn't make us stupid people. that's what draws us together and makes us able to relate to one another and help each other to get sober. we understand what those "normal" people never will...because we've been there and done that.
keep coming back.
****{hugs}}}
we've all done stupid things while under the influence. that doesn't make us stupid people. that's what draws us together and makes us able to relate to one another and help each other to get sober. we understand what those "normal" people never will...because we've been there and done that.
keep coming back.
****{hugs}}}
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