Rella927

December 6, 2007
Adult Children of Alcoholics daily reminders

Anger

I am learning how to resolve my emotions

I will find outlets for my rage. I will not let anger run my life.

Through the years, I have channeled my anger in many ways…in order not to face it; I may have used competence as a weapon, exercising my power by becoming a taskmaster; perhaps I vent my anger by using chemicals or food, abusing myself and others by my erratic, destructive behavior.

I was led to believe that if I cut myself off from my rage, it would go away. Today I know that it is precisely from cutting myself off from my emotions that I lack skills in resolving them.

This is the day that I cease letting my anger run my life. I will not unjustly direct my anger toward my partner, my children or my co-workers. When I send sparks flying every which way, it reminds me of the alcoholics’ binge. Instead, I will turn to others for assistance and support.

SaTiT

thanks Rella

never though of it like that, not taking it out on anyone else.
not drinking or using today. Not erratic as i deem what erratic to be.

It's not eating me up..did a vent thread not too long ago, so it helps
on that front
it's subtle... I don't like it when a get angery

it just pisses me off that some ******** stole my guitar and my processor that's all.
I feel so fustrated with it. There's nothing i can do about
it to get it back or anything, But it's like that's little of what i have
from all of the chaso of living with my gf, now that gets stolen from
me too. And playing my music keeps me sane..now, that's gone too.
that's how I use to release my anger is just play my guitar.

it's like what freaken now ??? So i emotionally shut down again.
Becuase when I feel, my anger..
i feel like hurting someone, just so...becuase people don't give a
rats ass when they hurt me and they get away with it..so why
the hell do I have to live and play by the rules.

But i don't want to do that or think like that..so i just shut down.

Astro

Thanks for posting this! Just this morning I had a classic case of road rage going. This is a good reminder of my alcoholic behavior. I still have much work to do.

Growing

Boy, can I relate to anger...it is my biggest shortcoming.

My A father was always seething with anger even when he was sober.

My husband says us kids are more like him than my mom, the A codie.

SaTit, is so wrong that your guitar and stuff were stolen.

Sometimes, it helps me if I just acknowledge how unfair life is so often----so its good your sharing about it.

Before recovery, I would have saught revenge, but, now I think, why sink to their *desperate* level?

I also remind myself of what else COULD be going wrong, but isn't, for the moment, lol.

Hope you are able to play music again soon...

Astro, "Codaholic Alcodepenant" LOL I almost fell out of my chair!
THAT is funny.

Good Luck Guys,

Growing

Midnightfrost

This is a big one for me too! I really work hard at recognizing my anger and expressing it constructively. I still find myself stomping around being passive aggressive occasionally but I try to recognize it for what it is and figure out what I'm really angry about. It's amazing the differences it makes when you tell someone why your feeling hurt, angry, frustrated, confused.. . . . its made a huge difference in my life. Like I got in from work and I was in a nasty mood. My friend that picked me up was obviously thrown by it. When I would usually make the friend who is being awesome and picking me up from work pay for it I just said "i'm sorry I'm in a nasty mood because of a, b, and c but I really appreciate you picking me up" . . . . she totally sympathized with me and listen to me bitch. and I felt hella better and her feelings weren't hurt! Love the post!