mimi54321

OK, I need to be honest.
I've not been on here for a while as I was so convinced I could cope and keep drinking.
But, I'm wrong. Now, the only thing I look forward to is drinking and eating at home on my own.
I hate myself, this is how I can switch off from this hatred ~ momentarily ~ its escapism and distraction.....I know I'll feel worse because of it, but this does not stop me.
Please, anyone, help??

Alyce14

Hi Mimi, There are many strugglers here; keep this thread for your personal progress but also hop over to "I am quitting today..." many of us, including me.

Alyce

Missymae737

Hi Mimi,

Good to see you again...I am glad you made it back to us...

The self hatred is a result of your addiction...I have been there as many other folks have...

You don't HAVE to be alone, and you no longer have to cripple yourself with self hatred...Recovery is possible...:ghug

Focus on today and don't drink...

Keep posting here..

Have you tried AA?

mimi54321

OMG - I have missed you guys so much ~ argh its so hard SO HARD SO HARD. I wish it was easier...
Thank you so much for replying, I feel honoured seriously, THANK YOU
xxx

mimi54321

Also, MissyMae, your sig is so true.
Mx

indigo

Welcome back I'm glad you're starting over, we are here to help each other and I'm sure others feel the same as you.

chrisfis36

Hang in there Mimi...your feelings are totally normal...it means you care and want to change. I go through the stuff and I just stay hopeful and keep pushing forward. I beat up myself all the time. I find having faith in a higher power is what keeps me honest and moving forward. Nobody is perfect in this world, we were born to struggle..it just have to work on how we handle these struggles and remember to love others, that will make loving yourself a lot easier!:praying

dave47

Hello Mimi and welcome back.Unfortunately there is no compromise and social drinking or having a couple to unwind is out of the question for many of us.Keep posting and using SR and seek medical advice as to the way forward,best wishes.

discoveringme

Mimi: I think a lot of us struggle with isolating and avoidance..I know I sure do! I'm 9 days sober today, started over like 4 times in this month alone!! But now that I have found so much support here...it helps so much. There are a lot of very wise souls in here. I have been logging on many times a day...gosh...hope that doesn't become another addiction..although it may be a GOOD addiction (to a point)!!!

Good to meet ya!

CarolD

Hello again...
Glad to see you again!

I suggest you have an honest
talk with your doctor to begin withdrawal.
It's best to be safe and sober too.

Blessings

Rowan

Welcome back Mimi

parentrecovers

mimi, glad you came and posted. keep reaching out, k

kelsh

Hi mimi,

I was an at home drinker the last part of my drinking because I didn't want to drink and drive.....it was so lonely and not fun. It sounds like you have been at SR before so welcome back. :ghug

Hang in there and it will come to you if you want it bad enough to work a program to stay Sober. A doctor is a good idea if you have been drinking very heavy every day.

kelsh