If I don't buy it, I don't want it
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If I don't buy it, I don't want it
So how do I stop buying it?
Today was supposed to be day # 2 for me. It didn't work out that way. I stopped at the gas station on the way home.
I bought beer. I told myself "no" the whole way home, but still I ended up at the gas station. I don't understand why I'm so powerless to put the pedal to the metal and just drive. It only takes 12 feet to get past the gas station. That's 7 seconds of my time at 30mph. In 7 seconds, I change my mind losing all progress even if just under 48 hours.
Here's what I figure. I've got to find some way to prevent my ability to buy. I would like to empty my wallet of all debit and credit cards. I don't need cash. I only drive 5 miles each way to work. If I have an emergency I have a cell phone, which I also have roadside assistance through. Somehow, I make excuses to have debit and credit cards on hand. Do I really need them? Do I? I need to be sure I cover all my bases. Is having a cell phone enough if I have a full tank of gas and roadside assistance?
I think that's the only way I can keep from BUYING beer. Without it I feel fine. I love the way I feel. So if I could just pass the gas station.....
Do you think this will work? All thoughts are appreciated.
Today was supposed to be day # 2 for me. It didn't work out that way. I stopped at the gas station on the way home.
I bought beer. I told myself "no" the whole way home, but still I ended up at the gas station. I don't understand why I'm so powerless to put the pedal to the metal and just drive. It only takes 12 feet to get past the gas station. That's 7 seconds of my time at 30mph. In 7 seconds, I change my mind losing all progress even if just under 48 hours.
Here's what I figure. I've got to find some way to prevent my ability to buy. I would like to empty my wallet of all debit and credit cards. I don't need cash. I only drive 5 miles each way to work. If I have an emergency I have a cell phone, which I also have roadside assistance through. Somehow, I make excuses to have debit and credit cards on hand. Do I really need them? Do I? I need to be sure I cover all my bases. Is having a cell phone enough if I have a full tank of gas and roadside assistance?
I think that's the only way I can keep from BUYING beer. Without it I feel fine. I love the way I feel. So if I could just pass the gas station.....
Do you think this will work? All thoughts are appreciated.
I understand where you're coming from.
If I'm hanging out with my friends, and they have drugs or alcohol, I'll go ahead and drink/smoke it. Even if I feel good, and know that I really shouldn't have it.
All I can say is stay strong. Try your way of thinking. It might just work
If I'm hanging out with my friends, and they have drugs or alcohol, I'll go ahead and drink/smoke it. Even if I feel good, and know that I really shouldn't have it.
All I can say is stay strong. Try your way of thinking. It might just work
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Alright, so then I'll try for quit day tomorrow....again. It (quit day) was Sunday and I made it through the day just fine. I didn't want it. I felt great. I slept well, though I did have a rash of irritability towards my loved ones around the time I would normally stop at the store. After reading the SR forums for several days, I recognized it in an instant and cut it off.
I am emptying out my wallet NOW. I will report tomorrow evening.
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
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Yes...that is a good plan....
You also might drive a different route.
I used to take a Taxi home from work
only 6 blocks...
rather than walk by my favorite bars.
Keep in focus
You also might drive a different route.
I used to take a Taxi home from work
only 6 blocks...
rather than walk by my favorite bars.
Keep in focus
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I understand where you're coming from.
If I'm hanging out with my friends, and they have drugs or alcohol, I'll go ahead and drink/smoke it. Even if I feel good, and know that I really shouldn't have it.
All I can say is stay strong. Try your way of thinking. It might just work
If I'm hanging out with my friends, and they have drugs or alcohol, I'll go ahead and drink/smoke it. Even if I feel good, and know that I really shouldn't have it.
All I can say is stay strong. Try your way of thinking. It might just work
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Join Date: Oct 2007
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Well, that's a thought. I will have to plan an entirely ridiculous route, but it will be well worth it. I pass 4 gas stations on the way to work and 5 on the way home in a mere 5 miles each way, but I will figure it out. 5, 10 or even 15 more minutes home is better than 5, 10, or 15 less minutes alive because my liver has failed. I come from a family of alcoholics and I don't want to continue down this path.
Yes, that's definitely what worked for me. I had to change my routines and patterns. It really, really helped because once the pattern was broken for a few days, it seemed like my mind shifted into a gentler place.
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