Hi, I'm Shane
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Join Date: Oct 2007
Location: Gretna, Louisiana
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Hi, I'm Shane
i'm a self mutilator, addict, and alcoholic.
i've struggled with self mutilation for over three years now, and drugs/alcohol for almost two.
my drug of choice is marijuana, and pharmaceuticals (mainly sleeping pills, nodoz). anything that will give me some kind of effect on my body.
i've been in therapy for almost a year, and have bettered myself greater than i possibly could ever imagine. but i've come to realize i struggle with the fact that i like to be addicted to drugs. it's the only thing i can control, and will not turn away from me. i've grown used to it, making it all that i know.
i am trying though, making the decision to willing stop taking any kind of pharmaceutical that is not prescribed to me.
i do take two pescriptions, both i do not abuse.
i found this site one night looking around the web, trying to search for some kind of forum that i could share myself with, and recieve help and encouragement.
i'm 18, and trying to live my life the best and healthiest way i can.
hello to everyone on here, and i hope you all are having a wonderful day.
-shane :]
i've struggled with self mutilation for over three years now, and drugs/alcohol for almost two.
my drug of choice is marijuana, and pharmaceuticals (mainly sleeping pills, nodoz). anything that will give me some kind of effect on my body.
i've been in therapy for almost a year, and have bettered myself greater than i possibly could ever imagine. but i've come to realize i struggle with the fact that i like to be addicted to drugs. it's the only thing i can control, and will not turn away from me. i've grown used to it, making it all that i know.
i am trying though, making the decision to willing stop taking any kind of pharmaceutical that is not prescribed to me.
i do take two pescriptions, both i do not abuse.
i found this site one night looking around the web, trying to search for some kind of forum that i could share myself with, and recieve help and encouragement.
i'm 18, and trying to live my life the best and healthiest way i can.
hello to everyone on here, and i hope you all are having a wonderful day.
-shane :]
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Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: Colorado Prairie
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When you need someone or something to turn to drugs and alcohol is an easy option. It may not be the answer, but it's always there for you. Knowing that all you have to do is find an alternative. We often tend to substitute one addiction for another. Those that find a positive addiction such as AA, NA, Church, College, etc... usually tend to be very successful at what they do. That's a lot of the reason that A.A.s tend to wave their banner so proudly. It's the addiction coming out. Find one! Live it, Love it, and spread it.
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Hi Shane,
Welcome and I understand exactly what you mean about drugs being the only thing you could control. In my case it was alcohol which I started self-medicating with in order to be able to sleep and it felt wonderful to have that control. I had lost control of all parts of my life at that point and it was empowering to be able to finally control my sleep. Unfortunately for me, the control was very brief and before very long I was addicted. I have since learned the Serenity Prayer and it has helped a lot.
I hope you keep reading and posting.
Welcome and I understand exactly what you mean about drugs being the only thing you could control. In my case it was alcohol which I started self-medicating with in order to be able to sleep and it felt wonderful to have that control. I had lost control of all parts of my life at that point and it was empowering to be able to finally control my sleep. Unfortunately for me, the control was very brief and before very long I was addicted. I have since learned the Serenity Prayer and it has helped a lot.
I hope you keep reading and posting.
Trying to do the right thing.
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Location: London
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Hi Shane ....Welcome to SR......
I also self harm ....and have used it as a copein teq ....for many yrs ...!
Its tough on your mind i know ..to just want to escape in WHATEVER way ...!
Luckley my self harm seems to have backed off for awhile now ...and ive not had any
Freak outs ....Ya know ..?
There's an ''Impulse control log'' ..around somewhere .
..Im sure you will come across it.!
I use it to help ....with my moods ...and feelins ..to stop the cuttin ...!
Im Glad you've found us .....:ghug
I also self harm ....and have used it as a copein teq ....for many yrs ...!
Its tough on your mind i know ..to just want to escape in WHATEVER way ...!
Luckley my self harm seems to have backed off for awhile now ...and ive not had any
Freak outs ....Ya know ..?
There's an ''Impulse control log'' ..around somewhere .
..Im sure you will come across it.!
I use it to help ....with my moods ...and feelins ..to stop the cuttin ...!
Im Glad you've found us .....:ghug
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