hazydaizy

Hi everyone, not sure where to start really, I guess I should tell you a little about me.

I am 24, about 15 years of my life was a horrible nightmare, abuse as a child and teen my life went out of control, the abuse I suffered has affected me so much that I don't have normal reactions, I don't know what is appropriate behavior. Now suffering with a multitude of mental illness I have spent the last 7 years of my life drinking every day and smoking pot, I battled a Temazepam addiction which nearly killed me and am finally getting some sort of medical help.

There is one thing that is stopping me getting better, thats the drinking, the last two months I have really cut down, from a bottle or more of vodka each day and am now drinking wine, a 3 liter box did last me a few days last week then I had a bit of a binge on it.

After moving to a new health service I am still waiting to see the specialist mental health team in this area and my GP has advised me NOT to just stop drinking. I am getting more and more depressed, I hardly leave the house anymore, I need to stop drinking and start taking some medication to get better.

I have made another appointment to see the doctor again, I am going to quit drinking, I am going to see what (if anything) she can give me to make this easier.

Anyway thats all about me, it was nice to find this community.

Daisy

indigo

Welcome to SR you've found the right place, lots of love and support around here.

RK2007

I'm not exactly a good person to be giving advice, but the people here understand you and know precisely what you're going through.

All the very best with beating alcohol, you sound already as if you have the strength to succeed.

Stay strong.

Rowan

Hi Daisy,

I'm so glad you found us. Welcome to our recovery community. I'm in recovery from alcohol addiction as well as clonazepam - the latter was much more difficult to kick.
I hope you continue to read and post as you enter this new stage of your life.

topetah

welcome daisy. (coolscreen name btw). sounds like you have been through a bunch. im sorry to hear that. i too tryed to switch from wiskey to beer (didnt work) from beer to whine (didnt work). we are addicts. we cant stop. doesnt matter what you drink you will always go overboard. atleast i did every time. have you tryed going to meetings or treatment? i would suggest that. worked wonders for me. it would be good for you to get some of that stuff off your chest when you were a kid. most likely its still eating you up inside. i tryed to quit on my own. never worked. i had to learn about my addictions and heal my self. reach out and let other people like you help with your situation. i hope the very best for you. good luck... jason

hazydaizy

Thanks for welcoming me here and your encouraging posts. I have already found a lot of the information here useful. At the moment I am struggling to leave the house so I haven't managed to make it to an AA meeting, I did phone them and a lady from my area offered to take me, I agreed but caved last minute. I am still on a waiting list for some sort of therapy to try and come to terms with my past so bit by bit I hope to get it together and start to live something that resembles a normal life.

Thanks again for the replies.
Daisy

parentrecovers

nice to meet you, hazydaisy. glad you are reaching out, keep posting!

blessings, k