Determined newbie
SauerKandiKiss
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Join Date: Oct 2007
Location: Ft.Lauderdale, FL
Posts: 9
Determined newbie
Ok well I found you all yesterday by a miracle 
I'm 30 drinking since 17, obviously not as heavily as I have in recent months. I'm tired...
Of not remembering things
Of getting into verbal fights that hurt people I love
Of wasting my money rather than investing it
Of lying
Of sneaking around
I am ready to fully retire from this worthless full time job I've carried on my shoulders for years. It's time to grow up accept I have a problem and do something about it! So any words of support are greatly appreciated and new friends are always nice!
Much luck and love to all, besides it's just for today right?
I'm 30 drinking since 17, obviously not as heavily as I have in recent months. I'm tired...
Of not remembering things
Of getting into verbal fights that hurt people I love
Of wasting my money rather than investing it
Of lying
Of sneaking around
I am ready to fully retire from this worthless full time job I've carried on my shoulders for years. It's time to grow up accept I have a problem and do something about it! So any words of support are greatly appreciated and new friends are always nice!
Much luck and love to all, besides it's just for today right?
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Join Date: Aug 2003
Location: Dancing in the Light
Posts: 61,504
Hi and Welcome!
I found this place by way of a miracle too and I love it. It's my lifeline.
I'm glad you made the decision to stop drinking and I know what a huge weight will be lifted off your shoulders.
I found this place by way of a miracle too and I love it. It's my lifeline.
I'm glad you made the decision to stop drinking and I know what a huge weight will be lifted off your shoulders.
Member
Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: Colorado Prairie
Posts: 1,417
Usually as soon as the pain and memories go away, complacency sets in. I suggest meeting after meeting after meeting. As many as it takes to keep you reminded of the fact that you have a desire and a reason to quit. I make no less than 3 a week and am headed to one in a few minutes.
Member
Join Date: Jul 2006
Location: Madison
Posts: 131
Congrats. The hardest thing is to admit to yourself that there is a problem. I know it was for me. I have been sober now for almost 50 days again. Keep up your guns. It will be hard but if you are ready to do the work it will work. Stay in touch I feel your pain and behind you. You are doing the right thing. Good Luck
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Join Date: Oct 2007
Location: Newark New Jersey
Posts: 38
Originally Posted by SauerKandiKiss 
Ok well I found you all yesterday by a miracle
I'm 30 drinking since 17, obviously not as heavily as I have in recent months. I'm tired...
Of not remembering things
Of getting into verbal fights that hurt people I love
Of wasting my money rather than investing it
Of lying
Of sneaking around
I am ready to fully retire from this worthless full time job I've carried on my shoulders for years. It's time to grow up accept I have a problem and do something about it! So any words of support are greatly appreciated and new friends are always nice!
Much luck and love to all, besides it's just for today right?
I'm 30 drinking since 17, obviously not as heavily as I have in recent months. I'm tired...
Of not remembering things
Of getting into verbal fights that hurt people I love
Of wasting my money rather than investing it
Of lying
Of sneaking around
I am ready to fully retire from this worthless full time job I've carried on my shoulders for years. It's time to grow up accept I have a problem and do something about it! So any words of support are greatly appreciated and new friends are always nice!
Much luck and love to all, besides it's just for today right?
Your friend
Sneakers,
Member
Join Date: Jul 2007
Location: CA Native
Posts: 2,509
Retirement sounds awesome. In every sense of the word 
Welcome, btw, and keep posting.
You CAN do anything you REALLY WANT TO DO.
Assuming you really want to stop drinking, mind if I enquire as to HOW you plan to accomplish the feat of both quitting, and living sober? Do you have a plan, a program, some instructions, a guidebook, roadmap, or anything of the kind?
Cause if you don't ... you're gonna need one or more of the aforementioned, I can promise you that.
Welcome, btw, and keep posting.
You CAN do anything you REALLY WANT TO DO.
Assuming you really want to stop drinking, mind if I enquire as to HOW you plan to accomplish the feat of both quitting, and living sober? Do you have a plan, a program, some instructions, a guidebook, roadmap, or anything of the kind?
Cause if you don't ... you're gonna need one or more of the aforementioned, I can promise you that.
SauerKandiKiss
Thread Starter
Join Date: Oct 2007
Location: Ft.Lauderdale, FL
Posts: 9
plan
well I've obviously tried un sucessfully before so i took a serious plan of attack. I have moved in with my family and also have distanced myself from all my drinking friends i have changed my cell number so only certain people can call me (everyone knows my email or myspace if they want to see how i'm doing) i have weekly meetings i am going with a friend of mine who has been clean for over a year (she'll keep me in check) I've officially cut all my ties to any former restaurant employers who want me back (former flair bartender) and will be focusing my energy on a new job with a steady income and I've also started painting and playing tennis again, oh yeah and of course I have all you to help support me too!!!
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Join Date: Jul 2007
Location: CA Native
Posts: 2,509
Congrats, SKK, you are definitely on the right track. I'm assuming by 'meeting' you are referring to some type of recovery/sobriety program that are attending with your clean friend? Your plan sounds like a good START. However, if I may be so bold as to say: "Turn the word weekly into daily" ... and then I will join you in calling it a 'serious plan'. U feel me?
Power of Positive Thinking!
Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: Richland, WA
Posts: 39
Your on the right track. Keep a positive attitude. Get the Big Book and start reading it. Just remember that it's not an easy thing to do. Temptation is everywhere. Most everyone I know and talk to struggle to some degree everyday. I, personnally, have to think about my soberity everyday. What I need to do, what rewards I have for not drinking or using, and the consequences if I relapse. I'm happy today. And today is all I have.
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Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: Omak WA
Posts: 1,049
Welcome SKK, 
Was glad to read your list....a good start to admitting you want help. Remember, there is a "Pink Cloud" for some in the beginning and then the real world of staying sober can hit you right in the face. For me, it took a meeting every night for one year until I knew I could trust myself to not pick up the first drink. I avoided slippery places and being home at the time I drank at home. I got a sponser, the big book and started working the program of AA. That was 19 years ago....I am still sober today and very proud of it but yet I still am only that one drink away from a drunk that might end up with me being in jail or dead. I took this program seriously & wanted to be sober more than anything else in my life. I drank for 24 years and still have not been sober that long yet. Keep posting. Everyone wants to help.
Good Luck,
kelsh
Was glad to read your list....a good start to admitting you want help. Remember, there is a "Pink Cloud" for some in the beginning and then the real world of staying sober can hit you right in the face. For me, it took a meeting every night for one year until I knew I could trust myself to not pick up the first drink. I avoided slippery places and being home at the time I drank at home. I got a sponser, the big book and started working the program of AA. That was 19 years ago....I am still sober today and very proud of it but yet I still am only that one drink away from a drunk that might end up with me being in jail or dead. I took this program seriously & wanted to be sober more than anything else in my life. I drank for 24 years and still have not been sober that long yet. Keep posting. Everyone wants to help.
Good Luck,
kelsh
SauerKandiKiss
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Join Date: Oct 2007
Location: Ft.Lauderdale, FL
Posts: 9
Sorry on day 3 withdrawl......
Originally Posted by SauerKandiKiss
i have weekly meetings i am going with a friend of mine who has been clean for over a year (she'll keep me in check):
This is the first time I have secured support team at arms reach so I'm very positive that I can do it.
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