Another Miracle
everything is already ok
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Join Date: May 2005
Location: Melbourne Victoria Australia
Posts: 19,793
Another Miracle
I want to share a little of yet more of the promises in life and recovery as it opens up for me.
I had been thinking I was ready for a partner recently and I have been doing something about that and its been interesting, well my hp has put a lovely lady in my life and I don't actually know where this will lead and thats ok, I am excited, happy and grateful.
I stopped using drugs and slowly got better physically, then I started doing what was suggested in the program I work (NA) and my mind became steadier and clearer so long as I worked the program, I became honest about what I had done and started to put my house in order which I still am doing. Now I live the program and have become aware of myself and others spiritual lifes. As I heal spritually my connection with my HP grows strong and my connection with others becomes clearer and stronger.
Still early days for me and I make many mistakes but I have SR, the fellowship my sponsor and my HP to guide and if need be hold me.
I am grateful and will always be grateful.
So Today I am two years four months and two weeks drug free, two years and two days nicotine free, my massive credit card debt has been moved into a manageable loan, I am working at a steady pace, I am often content with no "more's" in sight or mind and it goes on... and am spending time with a lovely woman who wants to be with me.
And I am told by those around and wiser than me that it gest better, seems impossible to me but I believe it becase this is where the impossible meets the road and becomes reality.
All miracles and I do is the footwork.
Kevin
The Big Book Pages 83 and 84 but be sure you bring a shoevl and roll your sleeves up
I had been thinking I was ready for a partner recently and I have been doing something about that and its been interesting, well my hp has put a lovely lady in my life and I don't actually know where this will lead and thats ok, I am excited, happy and grateful.
I stopped using drugs and slowly got better physically, then I started doing what was suggested in the program I work (NA) and my mind became steadier and clearer so long as I worked the program, I became honest about what I had done and started to put my house in order which I still am doing. Now I live the program and have become aware of myself and others spiritual lifes. As I heal spritually my connection with my HP grows strong and my connection with others becomes clearer and stronger.
Still early days for me and I make many mistakes but I have SR, the fellowship my sponsor and my HP to guide and if need be hold me.
I am grateful and will always be grateful.
So Today I am two years four months and two weeks drug free, two years and two days nicotine free, my massive credit card debt has been moved into a manageable loan, I am working at a steady pace, I am often content with no "more's" in sight or mind and it goes on... and am spending time with a lovely woman who wants to be with me.
And I am told by those around and wiser than me that it gest better, seems impossible to me but I believe it becase this is where the impossible meets the road and becomes reality.
All miracles and I do is the footwork.
Kevin
The Big Book Pages 83 and 84 but be sure you bring a shoevl and roll your sleeves up
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That's wonderful!
Kevin, any woman would be fortunate to be in your company - just think, all the kinks are worked out! I try to always read your posts, even though I don't write very much myself, and you've been inspiring. I'm so thrilled for you. All the twists and turns in our lives that make no sense at the time - maybe it is all for a reason after all. Ya think?
Way to go Kevo!! That's wonderful news!
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Join Date: May 2005
Location: Melbourne Victoria Australia
Posts: 19,793
Thanks guys and it is all still miracles but! It seems I get rejected after one or two dates and thats been hard except that I knew it was not for me. Well we had a great night last night and I arrive home to find a message saying I had a great time but no thanks anymore.
I felt so low this morning and questioned my HP for setting this up. Then realised that I did this and maybe the message is not to do this or I am not ready.
I thought about not posting this here or telling friends and members, but I must as I need to see this and move on.
I do feel very silly though and very hurt, rejection makes me feel so dirty, its one of the things from my early childhood, I used to be locked in the shed or at leaast out of the house.... This journey is not always a cake walk and the things that trip me up come out of the blue.
I need to talk and need a hug so badly (rejection makes me think I am untouchable) I am going to phone my freind and meet up with him.
Kevin
PS it seems to me that the choices are keep reaching out and moving forward or slip back into a lousy life and possibly active adiction. So this old dragon is dragging its sorry ass around for a while they getting back up there
I felt so low this morning and questioned my HP for setting this up. Then realised that I did this and maybe the message is not to do this or I am not ready.
I thought about not posting this here or telling friends and members, but I must as I need to see this and move on.
I do feel very silly though and very hurt, rejection makes me feel so dirty, its one of the things from my early childhood, I used to be locked in the shed or at leaast out of the house.... This journey is not always a cake walk and the things that trip me up come out of the blue.
I need to talk and need a hug so badly (rejection makes me think I am untouchable) I am going to phone my freind and meet up with him.
Kevin
PS it seems to me that the choices are keep reaching out and moving forward or slip back into a lousy life and possibly active adiction. So this old dragon is dragging its sorry ass around for a while they getting back up there
Last edited by nogard; 10-05-2007 at 06:33 PM.
The best is yet to come your way Kevin
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Oh Kevin, I'm sorry you are going through this and I so hope that you feel better. Sometimes it's hard to accept the plan that our HP has for us and I know there are times when I wonder why we can't do it my way. Try to take a step back and believe that everything happens for a reason. The right person will come along for you, when the time is right.
everything is already ok
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Join Date: May 2005
Location: Melbourne Victoria Australia
Posts: 19,793
Yeah Anna I know your irght but can't I wallow just a bit 
Seriously it hurts its a physical thing in my stomach and its bringing so much to the forefront. I guess I can deal with these a bit at a time, but I do see now that there is much about my self worth, my view of myself that I need to deal with.
Kevin
Seriously it hurts its a physical thing in my stomach and its bringing so much to the forefront. I guess I can deal with these a bit at a time, but I do see now that there is much about my self worth, my view of myself that I need to deal with.
Kevin
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