14 days and counting...
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14 days and counting...
...Yep, can't believe it. Day 14 today. I've been hitting up local meetings since day 1. The only day I can't make it out is on Wednesdays. I've been saying the Serenity Prayer every morning multiple times, I have found a great sponsor, I've started reading the Big Book and I'm working on some writing per my sponsor.
Some days are really hard but I tell myself, "Yes, I want a drink/pills and maybe I will do so tomorrow. But tonight I will sleep on it just to make sure this is what I want." And then it's tomorrow and I say the same thing, one day at a time. This works for me A LOT. Because I do want to go back out there...
...I'm a functioning addict and never had a problem holding down a job or pushing people away, but on the inside I was dying. For the first time after 15+ years of addiction, hell, a lifetime of addiction, I actually feel as if I am working towards bettering myself as an individual. I wake up every morning and tell myself in the mirror 10 times per my sponsor, "I love myself" and it's slowly beginning to work.
I've never met better people in my entire life than at AA meetings and I want to continue to do so.
Thanks everyone for sharing on this board. It keeps me sane during work hours when I can't go to a meeting.
-SL
Some days are really hard but I tell myself, "Yes, I want a drink/pills and maybe I will do so tomorrow. But tonight I will sleep on it just to make sure this is what I want." And then it's tomorrow and I say the same thing, one day at a time. This works for me A LOT. Because I do want to go back out there...
...I'm a functioning addict and never had a problem holding down a job or pushing people away, but on the inside I was dying. For the first time after 15+ years of addiction, hell, a lifetime of addiction, I actually feel as if I am working towards bettering myself as an individual. I wake up every morning and tell myself in the mirror 10 times per my sponsor, "I love myself" and it's slowly beginning to work.
I've never met better people in my entire life than at AA meetings and I want to continue to do so.
Thanks everyone for sharing on this board. It keeps me sane during work hours when I can't go to a meeting.
-SL
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