InstantNoodles

I have been sober almost an entire week, which is one heck of a record for me this past year. I woke up this morning and all I can smell is alcohol and all I can think about is drinking. I didnt even have a craving yesterday...

What the heck happened to me all of a sudden?

Steve58

Dunno, but I hope you can keep busy till it passes! Keep thinking about starting over again!

S

CarolD

See if this helps

http://www.tlctx.com/ar_pages/paw_part1.htm

Glad to see you are sober
Congratulations!

Jersey Nonny

Cunning, baffling, powerful...it sneaks up on you when you least expect it...and, you don't have enough experience and/or strength yet to be able to withstand that sneaky demon (without help).

What is your support system? Just SR? AA and/or NA meetings? A sponsor? Phone network?

All of the above couldn't be too much!!! Utilize every area of recovery!!!

Afraid2Succeed

Wow almost a week!! That's awesome

Jersey Nonny

I vaguely remembered your posts from a week ago, so I went back to reread, and this stuck out (once again):

Quote:

I am really considering AA, but before I try that I thought I would join a board and see if I can attempt to break this disease.

I guess you're still trying to do it "the easier, softer way". How's it working so far?
I found AA meetings and following the suggestions heard there to be my easier, softer way. Sure beats "white-knuckling" it. You really ought to try some meetings. What the heck...if you're still intent on struggling without benefit of AA...the pain and suffering will still be waiting for you.

parentrecovers

hey instant, i think jersey might be onto something here. meanwhile, i've heard folks say they brush their teeth a lot, suck on hard candy, drink water - to get through cravings.

just don't give in...

blessings, k

Jersey Nonny

Yes...all of the above was recommended at the 12-day hospital mini-detox/rehab I was in, followed up by a very strong emphasis on the importance of attending AA meetings. When I got out of the 12-day program, there was not a doubt in my mind that AA would become a way of life for me...and, to this day, I've never regretted that decision.

InstantNoodles

Dont know what it was this morning and the past few hours, it just came and went, but wow was it strong... To be honest, I already feel like I am winning against this addiction.

If I fail this time, I will go to AA. However, I wont have to because I'm not going to fail...

I am going furnature shopping after work tonight with the fiance, and I have ice hockey tonight, so I dont have to worry about anything. The only thing I will be putting in my body tonight is pasta and water

Its been crazy, almost a week so far! I cant tell you how odd it has been going home from work and staying up until 3 or 4 in the morning before I go to bed. I used to basically come home, drink a bunch, and be out by midnight if that.

I have so much time to myself now its rediculous. My life is already changing for the better. Maybe now I will have time to read that new C++ book and attempt to find a better paying job somewhere else...

Jersey Nonny

Quote:

If I fail this time, I will go to AA.

All I can say to that is, "Oh, my!"

You will be in my thoughts and prayers

InstantNoodles

That doesnt sound like a good oh my

rloomer

No it doesn't.

t sounds more like an " I can already see the the fork in the road ahead and I'm turning left, and you're turning right. I told you we should go left because it leads to greener pastures. I wish you would go left with me but we're in seperate cars and there's nothing I can do.

parentrecovers

um, ya think? ha!

parentrecovers

you two are quick learners

rloomer

Hey it's something I wouldn't have been able to figure out a month ago

parentrecovers

yes, that is what is so great about recovery! keep it up!

k

InstantNoodles

Well thats not quite what I said. I said

"If I fail this time, I will go to AA. However, I wont have to because I'm not going to fail..."

SaTiT

I think it has to do with something rather..rather that I'm an alcoholic
and I drank just becuase it was a tuesday.

but that's why I go to meetings, meet some people that kind of
have simular experince. And they give live tools such as
I can start my day over anytime I want. Becuase someday it dosn't
matter what side of the bed I get out of...it just feels all wrong.

Congrats on your 5 days...that's an accomplishment and a half.
Okay..maybe your starting to understand why we do this stuff oneday
at a time and maybe a little bit about not being cured.

I've been doing this since 92..I don't have those crazy cravings like i
did in my first year of recovery. it hits me different thou...
my alcoholic thinking still throws cruve balls at me.
life is better than it was to be...so maybe i can trun in my happiness
for misseries.lol

Okay..people tell me to play the tape to end..all of the consequence
and nightmares..that helps.

Okay...but i'm one of those people that had crazy cravings that
pop out of no where and it can hit me at any given moment.
On a good day i can try to fight it but on a bad, bad, day it's
just all crazy and I can't handle it. I couldn't fight the craving
even if I tried..i get worn out of doing it becuase I do have a
desire not to drink anymore...never the less i still get those
insane cravings.

then I had a brain fart..all of the AA saying and the 12 steps
started to make sense to me.
Yes I was sick and tired of being sick and tired.
I was also sick and tired of figthing my cravings.
well..i figure I had nothing to loose as corny as it might had sounded to me.
I truned my cravings over to GOD...
well..i didn't really beliving in god or a HP
but as i said, i got sick and tired of fighting my cravings..
beats the hell out of me if there's a god, but I did my part...I truned it over.

and the day did come when my obsession or complusion to drink was
removed from me.
I kept going back to those funky AA meetings wheather I liked it or not.
Well they said "don't leave 5 mins before the miracle happens"

I didn't wanan miss out on the miracle...becuase the damn obsession and complusions
to drink sucked ass...

f911

Hey InstantNoodles

I'm an alcoholic, sober over 3 years. I went to AA for about six months. It didn't really work out for me (I'm not a "12 steps or Higher Power" kind of person). However, I did learn some valuable tools and felt like I got off to a good start. I think you might just consider going to a few meetings. I couldn't hurt.

The most important lesson I picked up from AA is that I couldn't do this alone. I had to explore different avenues.

jane

Reubena

Congrats on almost seven days! Keep at it

R