aasharon90

Hi Im Sharon and Im an Alcoholic.

By the Grace of my HP and people like
you here in SR I havent found it necessary
to take a drink of alcohol since 8-11-90.

For that and you I am truely grateful.

Who am I is the question I ask myself.

I have been living for 48 yrs now and
what do i know....What do I have to
show for it. What knowledge have I
aquired over the yrs. ????

Well....my little life is a small cocoon...

As a child growing up i recall learning
to do housework PERFECTLY. The
physical, verbal and emotional abuse
kept me very small. Meaning......top
priority was to keep my parents house
inside and out emmaculate. My world
was mostly limited to that task under
all that abuse.

I finshed school hiding the truth of
what my life was like at home. Lots
of living in fear.

At 18 i moved out of that enviroment
and began my own life....sure i was
independant...i learned to stand up
for myself and formed a hard shell
to prevent being hurt.

I drank to numb all sorts of feelings
thru the yrs till i was 30 and got
sober as a result of a family
intervention.

So what knowledge have i aquired
over the yrs....hmmmm....well....
what i learned growing up....how
to keep a PERFECT house....With
help and guidance from Above I
manage to bring 2 AWESOME kids
in the world who r now 23 and 20....
Both attending College....

How they ended up SO FINE was
all due to the Man Upstairs.

Getting sober while they were just
4 and 6 allowed them to know
what recovery was all about....

And really thats what i know today....

Recovery has allowed me to face
my demons and work thru difficulties
in life....I also know how to work sucessfully
with the public.....remarkable since i spent
16 yrs as a stay at home mom....

My little world isnt filled with book
knowledge...and maybe that is one
of the reasons why i possibly failed
as a wife.....my husband comes from
smart educated folks....and not to
belittle my own family because my dad
finished LSU as an Engineer and had
AWESOME faith....A good father
and husband.

I just didnt get the brains or whatever
it took to be studious. For me Im
more of a physical person.

....i guess i learned to work, play
and live hard in life.

Anyway...i couldnt communicate
with my spouse on that level
of knowledge he had....it bored me
to hear intillectual stuff....and with him,
my small world of knowledge
surely turned him off.....

So what im saying is....all i
know today after 48 yrs. is
small....and I guess im still
a work in progress.....

And on that note, ill open
the floor to u SR.

Thanks for letting me share
my small world of knowledge
with you.

Astro

I'm Scott, and I'm a sober and grateful member of AA. I'm the single father of two beautiful children, David (12) and Katie (9). I have a beautiful and very intelligent girlfriend. I've got so many hobbies, but most importantly I have my sobriety and a connection with a God of my understanding. I should also mention that I love being of service more than anything, it's made my life richer than I ever dreamed it could be.

Beyond that, I have this moment only. The past is gone and tomorrow isn't here yet, so for now I'll just focus on going to bed sober tonight.

Thanks as always for the brain food, Sharon!

sun shine kid

Hey ya`ll
Dave alcoholic
I`m 45 married, with 1 son he just turned 13 (ya a teenager)

My last drink was 6-6-06 before I went to jail. After I got out I prayed to God to remove the obsesion to drink ( with all my heart & soul) He did!!!!!!!

I walked around dry for a year before I came back into the rooms, I needed someone to talk to that would understand.
Since then I have gotten a home group,sponsor & started working the steps. Just got my 90 day chip 8-7-07. I know I have along way to go, but I have a strong support group.
So one day at a time in his time!!!!
Would like to post more but its time for tues. f2f meeting.

Peace & love

Astro

Congrats on your 90 day chip, Dave, and welcome to SR!

OK, back to sharon's topic..............

SaTiT

what do i know ?
I know plenty...but it's still screwie..thou. lol

strange... all of my partners are walking dictionaries.lol
Some said they have picture perfect memories..on parper perhase..
I beg the differ.. Actaully i rebel agaisnt it...probably becuase
my dad is a ceo..lol freaken throwing 8 silly-able words at a 8
year old kid instead of just loving him...
Imagin that..wa, being attractive to women that has the same
triats as my father.

I know there's an easy spell check botton damn it...
What make's me intelligent is that I can figure out what
people are writing and saying when it's not perfect and in greek sometimes..lol

I know growning up in a dysfunctional home, really, really mess me up.
You might get an impression I grew up in a trailer park....Nnnope!
On the westside , upper middle class. Everything all rosie on the outside,
it was all f-up on the inside..Then again, my family wasn't any different
from my childhood friend's family...becuase they pretty much lived
and acted just like my family too.
I thought is was normal and i had a normal childhood..lol
and that's about how i felt before I got sober. All rosie
on the outside and all f-up on the inside.

Then when I got old enough to get away..i was hoping I out grew that crap..
but it didn't happened like that. Luckily I got sober at 22.
I did manage to put 11 years together. After my relaped, I finally looked
into ACOA...well, it was suggested that i attend acoa when I first got sober..
See what happends when I don't follow instructions.lol
Digging up those old wounds totally sucked....I ran away from it all my life.
well it came up and bit me in the arss..it happened on god's times i guess
or maybe my HP deem it was time I healed enough to peel another layer away.lol
I'm feeling more well than I've have ever been in my entire life

but I don't wanna know anymore..lol
becuase the more i know, the less i know...

aasharon90

Hey satit...i heard that phrase yesterday at a meeting...

"The more i know the less i know"

Pretty cool huh?

Thanks guys for sharing ur ESH with me and others.

Much appreciated.