Amelie

Hi every1,
I am back again. Another embarrassing drunk night last night. Just wanted to say hi feeling very down at moment
Amelie

Dee74

Hi Amelie

know that feeling. the morning after shame...and the hangover.


Doesn't have to be like this - you've been here long enough to know that

Any ideas on what you might do this time ?

D

Amelie

I dont know really at the moment. Going to go down to gym tommorow. Mayb if i turn into fitness fanatic i wont be like this.
It was so horrible waking up this morning. I had to check my sms and caller id (then thought phew thank god i havent called any1)

Anna

Oh, I remember that feeling very well. Who did I call last night? I don't miss that at all. Exercising can definitely help. I think it also takes emotional and spiritual work each day, as well.

Dee74

I think you need more than the gym, A. I think you know that too.

I'm not an AAer, I have no recognised programme, I'm not pushing any agenda, but - if your drinking is making you as sad and unhappy as yr posts suggest - you need to do *something*, right?

D

L Ron Hoover

Amelie;
You've got to want to stay sober more than you want to drink. I've had my share of day ones, too. Nothing's going to change unless <you> want it to.

Blessings,
LRH

Amelie

Thanks all. thats the bit i always have a problem with . i always forget that what after a couple of weeks. going to take it one day at a time.

Amelie

Dee -i was wondering what you do instead of aa? Thanks

Dee74

sorry A no easy answers here.

in my case, what I did was drink hard and often for 20 yrs..wrecked my body and realised it was literally either stop or die. Fear was better than AA for me. Now my new life is slowly becoming my motivational tool as the fear is subsiding.

I put off doing something about it too, I made excuses, I rationalised I really didn't have a problem, then when that didn't work anymore, I thought I was strong and intelligent enough and could control it. I did all that for 20 years.

Don't get to yr 40s and have to quit or die.

Do something now. If AAs not your deal, find something that is. The Secular Forum stickies is a good place to start looking for non AA programmes.

I'm in Australia....can any other Brits out there help with options ?

D

Amelie

Thank you D for your comments. I will try again.

Aysha

I had my day one again too a few days ago...Just keep going.
Just remember never ever give up.
When you give up all together you have pretty much lost.
I may never move forward but I will never move back. And even if I stay in the same place forever...I will never give up.
You dont either.

Amelie

Thanks chiynita. Just need to remember not to go back to today

Rowan

Just wanted to say hi, Amelie. I hope you make different choices next time. Recovery is possible, if you are willing to work for it.

escape2day

hi hope you are feeling better. my day one--again was a couple of days ago.
it helps me to at least make a drive by here at the forum once a day. always try to in the morning and at nite if i can. more often when i'm thinking alcohol thoughts.
best wishes---and keep trying (i am)

Jhana

I wish day 1's would stay in our heads better. Or the day before day 1. Somehow drinking always feels like an option when one gets sane again.

Checking in here on a regular (even hourly) basis helps.

Hugs,
Jhana

stone

Hi Amelie, hang in there and try again. I was what you might call a chronic relapser and the relapses started getting worse and worse, phyical withdrawals were unbelievable not to mention the mental anguish.
After the last one I started going to AA and it is helping a lot, good luck.

Missymae737

How are you doing today, Ameile???

Thinking of you...

parentrecovers

glad you came and posted, k

Amelie

Hi every1,
I am feeling bit better today. Have nt had a drink even though i was surrounded by it this evening. My b/f bought some beers and drank them. I was slightly tempted and then i thought of last week. Last week - This is typical ofme we went out and bought a 12 pack of beer and I end up drinking 8 of them. Its like a craving once you ve had more than a couple it feels like i am trying to keep that energy up. He was so cross with me. B/f tonight bought 8 beers and only drank 4 (what willpower). I would have liked at least 6! I think i have definetly got a problem even though i doubted it in the past another example is last saturday we all went to a wine fayre with family and i dranks about 3 glasses of wine then we all left and went home. The rest of my family then at home drank tea i on the other had drank a bottle of wine in a bout 2 hours.
Cant allow myself to drink again was really unwell mentally and physically this time. I dont know what get in to me. Its like i am mental and it so deceptive as some time i can control.
Thanks every1 I am feeling more positive
:-)

Change4life

Day 1.... Day1....Day 1...Day 1.

I did it over and over for years. Just gotta keep doing it till we get it right. Dont give up and try all possible solutions till you find what works for you. Meetings seem to be the answer for many people. Im not much for the AA or NA environment, but i havent been able to fully quit. My way just doesnt work. I have the intentions of going to a meeting everynight and I never make it. I have the intentions of not drinking everynight and I never make it.

I guess what im trying to say is that we need to get ourselves to a few meetings and give it a try..