Aysha

I cant do it any more..Pretend evertything is ok and that I cant beat this on luck and hope alone...My phone is off..my internet is off..My truck got towed because my license was expired on my bday..My grams isnt doing so good. There is nothing they can do for her. So she will just keep bleeding and have to keep going for transfusions as needed. I am losing my mind. I just cant take it anymore. F that job..I need to get me right. And I mean right now!!!!!! I am going to menatal health first and then treatment. I dont care how long it takes..I am done trying to play the bad..I know it all and can do it by myself...I am hysterical in tears right now because I have had it!!!!!
\I NEED HELP AND NOW!!!! I want to die and just go aweay forever. But I know that is not the answer. So I am taking every step possible to get myself checked in everywhere possible. I am so sick of livivng like this. Not one person called me on my baday or sent a card. DO you know how much that hurt me??? I spent my bday all by myself alone in my house. And thats what started my 5 day binge that ended with my truck being towed and me stuck in the hell hole with no way home. My hair is in knots and I cant even get it out. I amtruely at my lowest low right now. I cant eve get the energy to get into the shower. I just need help before its too late.

I am checking in to mental..then drug treatment....So I may be gone awhile. I will miss you guys. I have truely snapped. And I need to get somewhere before the worsr happens. And I dont want that. I will check in if I can but for now..I will be gone until my life gets back to somewhat normal...I love you all. Anddont quit...any of you...I am gone for now...

Live

I am glad you are going to take care of yourself! (((((hugs)))))

stone

Trish you might be feeling really bad right now but you are doing exactly the right thing by trying to get any help you can, psych or rehab.
It can only get better from this point and I am sure it will do to.

Dee74

oh ((((trish)))) you're doing the right thing, honey.

I'll miss you, but I'll see you soon

D

cmc

trish,
I'm glad you are going to take care of yourself...YOU are worth it.
Please don't forget that.
huge hugs,
cmc

Anna

Trish, you are doing the right thing. You need to put your health - physical, mental and emotional - before any job. The job won't work until you get yourself taken care of and I'm glad you see that.

Keep in touch if you can. We're always here!

gypsytears

Trish. Thank you so much for thinking enough of us to let us know what's going on. I hope you get into a place asap.You deserve to get well because you are so worth it. Please don't give up on yourself.

Missymae737

Hi Chiy,

We were here for your birthday...I remember replying to the thread...

I know how sad you must feel but going on these binges will not help anything... BEFORE you picked up why didn't you ask for help?

I don't mean to sound harsh but, we use any excuse to use alcohol or drugs...We are just kidding ourselves into thinking that we will feel better...Truth is our problems become ten-fold, we only add to the hurt...

I am glad you are getting help and I will say a prayer for you...

Thinking of you..

Jules62

Trish-I'm so glad you're going to get the help you need.I'm sorry you're so low.

I'm thinking of you,

Love, Julesxox

angie9

hey trish Im thinking of you too . I dont know what else I can add but I sort of know what your feeling. It must of being bloody aweful on your birthday no one getting in contact with you :0( I Know its late and kinda of silly but I wish you a belated birthday and wish I could of known earlier so I could of said "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" to you. Im off next week to see a menatlhealth thrapist as well thats what I ment when I said I kinda of know what your going through and the fustration of feeling that you cant do it anymore its a bloody friggin tirying fustrating pain in the arse battle at times.
Chin up hon you have heaps of cyber friends here who respect you and want to help you and be there for you
Ang

scaredykat

Trish I wish you all the best. Take care.

Barb

barb dwyer

*prayers for trish*

Hope

You are in my thoughts and prayers.

*hugs*

IO Storm

Sorry I missed your birthday Chiy...

I've not felt well and have been scarce lately...

Hey I picked out most of my hair last year..it was part of my bottom..

Maybe this is your botom hun...

Please carry out what you've said..you do need emergency help..

We'll be praying for you..

Love,

IO

Pilgrim

I will be thinking of you and praying you get the help you need.

Thanks for letting us know your plan.

Come back ok?

indigo

Chiy you are doing the right thing, I'm proud of you. Hope everything works out for the best for you and I am looking forward to your return.

hugs indie

Rusty Zipper

trish, we'll save you a seat on the bus...

all good wishes trish...

lets keep this trish with us...

xxoo, rz

nan07

You're doing the best thing, Chi. I will send some good thoughts your way. I hope someone can get you in soon!

Take care...

GlassPrisoner

Hopefully this is your bottom. And I say that in a loving, kind way.

((((trish))))

Good Luck.

leeside

And if this is your bottom then hopefully the only way you can go is up.