longingforpeace

Just wanted to put that out there. I'm not asking for anything except to say that it is critical to go to meetings. This board is really really supportive and I'm realizing that I can't work a program of recovery on my computer. I'll visit this forum as an adjunct to recovery. I didn't have enough recovery tools when I saw my dad over the weekend. There's a grief that goes unspoken.....
Wishing you all wisdom, courage and peace.

Jersey Nonny

Happy to see you LFP...not everyone is so fortunate.

Quote:

Humility:
'Perfect humility,' Bill Wilson wrote, 'would be a full willingness, in all times and places, to find and to do the will of God.' 'Without some degree of humility, no alcoholic can stay sober at all. Nearly all AA's have found, too, that unless they develop much more of this precious quality than may be required just for sobriety, they still haven't much chance of becoming truly happy.'

It takes a lot to admit when we've screwed up; but, you ratted on yourself without wasting precious time getting back to basics.

GlassPrisoner

Lesson learned. Move forward.

And Thank God that you're not still out there. My next bender would be my last. I'm convinced of that.....

Astro

Just keep coming back, longing. There's always room for one more at a meeting.

Rowan

Thanks for your honesty. I agree that meetings are crucial, and that we need f2f support. Please keep posting, and let us know how it goes.

Pilgrim

Hi Longing. I had a one night stand with alcohol on the last day of June. Otherwise I would be coming up to my 90 days. It was like getting back with an old boyfriend and we had moved on. It didn't work. I went straight back into my programme thank goodness. I have some organ damage from my drinking so a relapse wouldn't be pretty.

I am proud of you for learning the lesson and coming straight back to the programme. It shows that you are making progress. I agree that SR is a lovely add on to face to face meetings. Thanks for the reminder. You have helped me today.

Anna

Hi longingforpeace,

I'm sorry you're going through this.

I hope you'll let us know how you're doing.

stone

Hi LFP, how are you doing today?

longingforpeace

Thanks for those of you who responded. It's kind of moving that there is still acceptance. I'm still trying and not giving up. I'm trying to get that 24 hours back. I'm looking for a sponser who will kick my butt and call me on stuff.

Dee74

Good to see you back on track LFP...you'll make it

D

angie9

Hi Longing I relasped last Friday and the shame and guilt was horrible!! But after feeling sorry for myself I have got up and dusted myself off and Im back on track
take care
Ang

scootinbabe

i relapsed many times before last year. i used this board, aa, psychologist, reading everything i can about alcoholism, and substituted lemonade for wine, good behavior for bad, stayed home from parties and places that would trigger me...gather everything you can in your arsenal. addiction is your enemy and there is no way to overprepare to fight for the most important battle of your life.

today is a new day. every day is a new day. you can do this.

Change4life

All we can do is pick ourselves up, dust ourseves off and keep moving forward.

ShawMac

Hang in there!--Im crawling out of a relapse myself.Im having a tough time but it gets a bit better every day,tho I must admit I feel Ive thrown away a winning lottery ticket.

parentrecovers

support and understanding, k

sherbear5104

I am in the same situation. Just coming back from a relapse, and looking for a sponsor who will be honest, no matter how it makes me feel. This is our lives we're talking about. Give me some of that tough love! Keep your head up. It gets better. I had it once before. I am determined to have it again.

Sherry